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Day 312: The courage to make a career change

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Selfie from atop the 6th floor of my new workplace. A couple of months ago I decided to push myself to apply for a job in car sales, because I was faced with the reality that my income at the time was not going to be enough for me to build my business effectively, in the way that I want to. I had actually applied for this car sales job a few months before, but on the day of my interview I let the experience of nervousness and fear of something completely new, direct me, and I didn't go to the interview.
But since then, I had worked more specifically with myself in establishing a practical way of dealing with nervousness, where - I had realized that previously I had been attempting to firstly ensure that no nervousness would come up within me, before I would apparently be ready / able to commit to a more time and skills intensive job. But, what I came to see about the nature of nervousness in me, is that I had been judging and fearing the experience of nervousness itself, and sabot…

Day 311: Cover of Dreams by the Cranberries

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My cover of Dreams by the Cranberries. I've always really liked this song and it's fun to sing.

The lyrics of this song, like those of so many others, are an expression of the Energetic relationships of desire / love / feeling - fear of loss / loneliness / emotion that are so prevalent in the minds of Human Beings, where we weave 'dreams' of fantasies and perfection inside our heads, painting beautiful pictures and believing the purpose of life on earth as a Human is to experience as much feelings and emotions as we can because apparently that's what it means to 'be alive'. I don't agree with that because I've seen through walking my own relationship to feelings and emotions, how such mental relationships of energy dependency trap us in perpetual self interest of seeing only what we want to experience in our own lives, and become dependent on each other to fulfill our accepted and allowed fantasies and dreams and hopes, rather than seeing each other …