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Day 299: The Origin of Anger in My Life Part 5: Beginning of Self Image Continued

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Continuing from my last post:

Day 297: The Origin of Anger in My Life Part 4: The Beginning of Self Image
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2015/05/day-297-origin-of-anger-in-my-life-part.html
"What I can see is that the stage in my life in which I see I started to have like, a self-image, and started to feel good or feel bad about things is the stage where I had words - I had a vocabulary. I was learning 'what things mean', and I was forming a self image through receiving input and feedback from people in my environment in the form of words, and how the words were spoken." 
So before I continue I want to put this investigation into specific context in terms of why I'm looking back at the beginning of my 'Self Image' as a child.

What I've found with the nature of Rage in my life is that it is the result of the accumulated suppressed energy of reactions of anger and frustration, where I actually move into anger and frustration from an initial emotion of feeli…

Day 298: How can we be Free when we have so many automatic Physical Behaviors?

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Why is the human face one of the most sensitive and illustrative places for the Quantum Physical to be seen?
How can you read your face to see the Quantum Physical?
How is the Quantum Physical connected to the face of your physical body for it to come through and be seen so specifically?
How will this series assist and support you to quantify your process when facing the Quantum Physical?

Check out this free interview Introduction: Quantum Physical available to download on Eqafe.
https://eqafe.com/p/introduction-quantum-physical


Listening to this interview, I wanted to share how throughout my process I've come to develop an awareness of how specifically and consistently my physical body reflects and shows me when there is a thought, feeling, emotion, reaction activating within me. Everyone can relate to the experiences of for instance a tensing of muscles, negative or positive energy experiences appearing in the solar plexus / stomach / chest area, feeling physically awkward or unc…

Day 297: The Origin of Anger in My Life Part 4: The Beginning of Self Image

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Continuing from the last post in this series:
I walked a path that brought me close to the point of self sabotage, where, as I described in my first post in this series, I trapped myself into SURVIVAL within the cycle of desire, hope, expectation, tied in with fear of losing / missing out on what I want, reacting more and more when I would encounter an obstacle, a failure, something not going as I expected, and locking myself into the pattern of Rage as the release of suppressed accumulated reactions. I came close to getting to a point where my anger would have made it impossible to continue developing my Agreement with my partner, and which would have led me further and further away from living my natural self expression.
...In posts to come I will walk through earlier events in my life and show how they influenced the formation of the desires, expectations, and self definitions through which I set myself up to walk the path of anger / self sabotage, and within this show how such a pa…

Day 296: If we All Riot, will Everything be All Right?

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An act of verbal or physical attack between a cop and a civilian played out in a moment of reaction of fear / anger / blame.

An act of verbal or physical attack between a Jew and an Arab played out in a moment of reaction of fear / anger / blame.
An act of verbal or physical attack between two partners in a relationship played out in a moment of reaction of fear / anger / blame.
An act of verbal or physical attack between a parent and a child played out in a moment of reaction of fear / anger / blame.
An act of verbal or physical attack between a teacher and a student played out in a moment of reaction of fear / anger / blame.
An act of verbal or physical attack between a Christian and an Atheist played out in a moment of reaction of fear / anger / blame.
An act of verbal or physical attack between an Arab and a Jew played out in a moment of reaction of fear / anger / blame.
An act of verbal or physical attack between a Vegetarian and a Meat eater played out in a moment of reaction of …

Day 295: What Determines Your Place in Society?

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I read an article that put the role of police and law enforcement in context in terms of the role it actually plays in how our society is structured around the protection of wealth and keeping everyone 'in their place':
"Police Violence Not Merely the Product of Police with Racist AttitudesWelcome to the Real News Network I'm Paul Jay. Police violence against people of color, that is illegal violence usually without consequence to the perpetrators, is not merely the product of too many law enforcement officers with racist attitudes. Their name says it all. Police are enforcing laws, including with deadly force, to make people obey legislation that at its heart protects people that own property. The more you own, the more you are served and protected. Of course we all want to live in a safer city and police play a significant role in that, but to address this violence we must recognize the underlying causes of street crime: unemployment, low wages, poverty, and completely …