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Day 270: How I've changed since I redefined the word Daring

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In this post I'm sharing what I've experienced and how I've changed since I redefined the word 'Daring' for myself. For context, read the following blogs:
Day 252: Living Words: Daring
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2014/04/day-252-he-who-dares-lives.html
Day 253: How I Realized I am not Limited to What I Prefer Doing
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2014/04/day-253-how-i-realized-i-am-not-limited.html
Day 254: Letting go of Past Failures and Daring to Live
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2014/05/day-254-letting-go-of-past-failures-and.html
Day 255: Dealing with Nervousness Practically
http://www.matterfreeman.com/2014/05/day-255-dealing-with-nervousness.html

I had initially investigated the word Daring because I had been really struggling with the experience of fear of failure and the resistance to taking the actions necessary to move and open up the business I am involved in, which is a business based on meeting people and doing sales presentations. I had found that the stat…

Day 269: Entertaining Personality - Self Forgiveness

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to design the 'entertaining' personality through, when I was younger, having realized that through stimulating someone's 'sense of humor', I can get them to connect a positive value to me and to 'like me', where within getting this feedback, I then judged myself within a positive value judgment as being 'more than', and within this would then feel good about myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have designed the 'entertaining' personality because I was not here, accepting myself, as who I am as life, and so used energy to 'feel' like something

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to program myself to access / go into the 'entertaining' personality when I am with a group of people who are joking amongst themselves

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want others to like me
I forgive myself that I ha…

Day 268: Spontaneity: From Personality Stimulation to Self Expression - Part 2

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Continuing from my last post:

Day 267: What is Humor? From Personality Stimulation to Self Expression - Part 1 http://www.matterfreeman.com/2014/09/day-267-what-is-humor-from-personality.html
"Though, I still face moments where in social situations, I'll have a moment where I see how I can take a joke to a point where it will make the others laugh, and I'll go into that personality, and will get that moment of a 'thrilling' experience of being 'the object of attention', being 'the social leader', and getting that experience of feeling 'more than' for a moment." 
So within this, I had a look within myself at how I actually experience real self expression and how it's different from what I experience accessing a Personality. 
Now what I've found with myself is that I have naturally like, a very spontaneous expression, where I find I can, in for example sharing perspective with a group of people on a point I've walked for mysel…

Day 267: What is Humor? From Personality Stimulation to Self Expression - Part 1

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I was looking at how in my process, one of the Personalities I've been facing within myself is the Personality of the 'Clown', or the 'Entertainer'. I'm going to share what I've found in the nature of this 'Clown' personality, and how such a Personality is not actually a self expression, but rather a system - a program in the mind. And within this I'll be sharing how I experience real Self Expression and how accessing Self Expression is different from accessing a Personality.

So to open this up, we'll look at the scenario of when I am for instance with a group of people, standing around in a 'social' setting, and people are joking and making fun of each other, or making fun of someone, or joking about a particular type of person, or type of style, or type of behavior. Now this 'Clown' personality specifically relates to the accessing and stimulating of 'humor' in people's minds, becoming the driving force that is…

Day 266: Am I Funding Suppression or Funding Change

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse entertainment as a way to, in a moment suppress an experience of resistance

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in and fuel the system of stimulation within myself, as a way to suppress what I'm experiencing, to, in a moment create the illusion that the experience doesn't exist and I'm 'free' of it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, within my own starting point / standing of accepting and allowing stimulation as suppression to exist in myself, accept and allow stimulation as suppression to exist in everyone else and making the process of creating a world that is best for all take longer, as I am, within choosing a moment of suppression and stimulation over taking self responsibility and moving myself as Life as self honesty to face and change myself, wasting a moment of space-time opportunity in which to take action -- moments of space-ti…