Day 255: Dealing with Nervousness Practically

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place a negative judgment / charge within myself toward the energy of nervousness, and to within separate myself from nervousness and manifest a relationship of friction within myself toward nervousness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I have to hate nervousness, because nervousness is unpleasant

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the 'if this then that' statement / words of : If I experience nervousness in relation to something - then that means I am not able to do that

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define nervousness as 'bad'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself within the idea that I can and should only do things that I do not first feel nervous about doing

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear experiencing the physical sensations that have accompanied extreme nervousness I've experienced such as sweating, a churning stomach, and my mouth getting dry

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize how I create nervousness in myself when I allow myself to form ideas and beliefs about what others expect of me, and then imagining myself not living up to / meeting their expectations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want and desire to meet others expectations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to secretly sabotage myself from changing / going beyond my comfort levels through projecting / imagining an idea of 'the perfect outcome / scenario' of how something could go, and then comparing myself to this projection and looking for reasons / little things about myself that I see could possibly prevent me from achieving this 'perfect outcome', and to within this imagine / have the idea that others are going to expect me to live up to 'the perfect outcome' as well, and to then within this imagine myself failing and experiencing embarrassment and humiliation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when faced with an opportunity to step beyond my past limitations, step into the unknown and live the skills I've prepared myself with, go into imaginations, projections, ideas about what might happen and participate in the thought process of creating nervousness

When and as I see nervousness arising in me - I commit myself to breathe, slow down, and not judge the experience

When and as I see nervousness arising in me - I commit myself to stop and not believe in the energy, but to rather take a moment, identify what projections / imaginations / ideas I had been participating in within my mind, and let go of the points, and breathe and relax myself back into my body, and clarify for myself the practical steps / actions I am about to walk, and realize that no matter what happens - I am here, I am okay - walk breath by breath, moment by moment - and I trust myself within whatever the outcome is

When and as I find myself experiencing nervousness just before meeting with someone / following through with an appointment I've committed to, I commit myself to stop, breathe, and remind myself that changing myself, walking physical change in real time and doing things where I don't know what the outcome will be - is a learning process and that I do not need to place expectations on myself or expect a particular outcome

I commit myself to make peace with nervousness, and to not accept or allow my decision making to be influenced by whether something brings up nervousness or not, but to stick to what I see is my potential and what resources and opportunities I see are here to work with



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  1. Nice! I went out to go door knocking today, and I walked a block noticing my reactions, stopped in some shade and spoke aloud some very similar Self-Forgiveness statements
    (specifically working with fear of rejection/failure). Then I gave myself a slight push, broke the ice with the first person I saw, and started striking up conversations around the neighborhood like I owned it :)

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