Day 254: Letting go of Past Failures and Daring to Live

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and see how in moments as I am walking my day, when I see a point in my world with the potential for me to actually apply skills and expressive abilities I've been preparing myself with in relation to expanding my business, and break through a point of limitation, I will deliberately decide, in a breath, to bring up memories of past failures, and will specifically look at how I experienced myself in terms of reactions / emotions that came up, and I will give this memory attention, and focus, and will accept and allow this memory to take directive principle of me and will accept and allow nervousness, anxiety, fear, to build in me, and within this, will take my attention away from the opportunity at hand and away from the skills and actual ability I see I have, and will look for reasons and excuses and little points that I will use to say -- oh well I could still work on this a little more, and I'm not quite ready to go for it yet, I need to work on myself just a little more, or there's this or that thing that I could get to instead of doing that - that can wait a little longer.

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my past failures and the emotions I experienced, as being the 'reason' why taking the next steps to break through my limitations is 'so difficult' -- instead of seeing and realizing that I am the one making it difficult because I am the one that keeps accessing and re-playing and giving attention to memories of past failures within my own mind

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to move faster than the physical breath, within and as which I actually see what I need to do in every moment, in terms of taking physical action to make my life more effective within actually applying the skills and abilities I see I have

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that, because I failed in the past, that 'I will continue to experience the memories and emotions of my past failures' -- instead of seeing and realizing that -- this is not in fact so, because, I see I can stop participating in / giving attention to such memories and simply be here as a breath and WALK in physical action

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear living in the moment as breath without memory, within the belief that I will maybe do something wrong, or screw up an opportunity, and within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see the simplicity of how, in and as a breath -- I do not need memories because I can always assess the moment in real time, and act in the relevant way, and that I do not need memories or future projections in order to live as a breath

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear taking risks because I believed that I must know what the outcome will be, within a prior memory or future projection

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold on to memories because I feared not knowing what the outcome will be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect always the worst outcome

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe I need to in all things always first gain proof in knowledge that I can access in my mind, that the outcome of a risk / endeavor / opportunity will be certain

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize and see the moments where I have already proven to myself that I can stand and walk in real-time living as breath without knowing what's going to happen, and simply respond to whatever events unfold / what happens and direct the moment / myself in the moment according to what is here -- and that, anything that I am not able to direct effectively -- I simply see it, and then subsequently walk a process of learning / understanding / discovering / uncovering the point, so that I can stand equal to the point and direct it -- no emotion, memory, future projections, reactions required -- and the whole time -- I am actually, physically -- FINE -- so there's in fact nothing to fear

And here again the word Daring comes up -- Daring to live without memory, without future projections - Daring to live as a breath in Self Trust - Self Trust that I will Find the way - the way to what is best for all, the way to what is most effective, the way to what is most supportive, and that no matter the outcome -- I still Stand, and I will take Response-Ability to make sure I am effective, to walk the practical steps of assisting and supporting myself within whatever the point happens to be - in this case, opportunities with people, to expand my business -- just as I've already proven to myself in my process, is already possible with many many other points

I commit myself to stop giving attention to memories of failures

When and as I see myself in a breath accessing a memory of a failure, I commit myself to STOP, and DARE myself to Live HERE, to let go of memory and future projections and BREATHE and walk in self trust

I commit myself to discover what it is to live without memory

Interesting also when I speak the word Daring out loud, the sound resonates in my chest, like this round sound that like, brings my attention Here - to my physical body, here to the moment

I commit myself to DARE to live in absolute self trust

I commit myself to show that the only REAL outcome is the outcome of Who I Decide I AM and what I will Accept and Allow in each moment of breath - that accumulate to an hour, a day, a week, a month, a year - a lifetime - a generation - a century

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