Day 248: How Love got Lost in the Matrix Part 4: Separation
Continuing from the previous posts:
Day 245: How Love got Lost in the Matrix - Part 1
Day 246: How Love Got Lost in the Matrix - Part 2: Revelations
Day 247: How Love got Lost in the Matrix - Part 3: Memories
"The fact that the woman's entire Relationship to her husband was 'erased' when she lost her memories and basically lost her entire previous Personality, shows how the Personality itself - as all the thoughts, feelings, emotions, opinions, memories, desires, wants, judgments, self definitions, knowledge --- that which is the foundation of all our Relationships of 'Love' as that through which we 'Relate' to another -- was never real. Never an actual Living Self. It was just a Program -- because, it if was Real, if it was actually Substantial, actually Living, actually Life - then it could not be deleted / erased. So what is Love as that which cannot be deleted / erased? How can we Substantiate ourselves / Live as that which cannot be deleted / erased?"emotions -- all that Energy that moves around inside us - when that energy is deleted -- what remains? The Physical Body. The Physical Reality. The Earth. What's fascinating about the example of someone losing their memories and their entire personality / that which they believed was who they are -- is that is shows that is was never really part of the Earth. When the Mind is gone - it's gone. I mean someone's personality / memories would only seem to 'live on' if others are holding memories of that person's personality within their own minds. And when there would be no one left to 'remember' someone's personality -- it would vanish from existence.
Isn't it strange how, starting from a very early age, we actually start to define our awareness / our very Self itself, only within the context / parameters of reactions, feelings, emotions, memories inside our heads -- to the point where, like in the story with the woman losing her memories - a 27 year old would regress to the mental age of a 4 year old after losing her personality / memories? Doesn't this go to show how completely separate we have allowed ourselves to become, from the actual substance that we are made of, in the actual physical reality that we in fact exist in and depend on - where we basically can't function or participate in reality if we lose our memories of our relationships and feeling / emotional experiences?
What are we living for if we're only living for the Survival of Energy that is not in fact Real because it can be deleted, as in the case where a person loses all their memories?
What does it say about the Nature of Ourselves we've accepted when we've placed all Value in Surviving as the fleeting Energy within our Minds - and virtually no Value in that which remains, that which is Here - the Physical Reality, the Physical Connection we all Share with each other?
But I mean, the whole 'Love' point is so bizarre - why do we value it so much? Doesn't 'love' really only exist because we're afraid to 'feel like no one loves us' or that 'we're not special to someone', and 'we don't want to be alone'? Doesn't that mean that our true nature has never been Love, but has always been Fear? Fear of being alone? Fear of feeling insignificant? Fear of being left out by others? Fear of not having anyone to protect us? But really how is it that we feel alone when we are Here in a world with Billions of other people and animals, actually Physically Connected and made of the exact same Substance / Source?
We're all in essence Equal in being parts of Life, and One in the Substance from which we're made, here together, here in the same reality, physically accessible to each other, able to communicate and interact with each other -- and yet in spite of this obvious togetherness - we have no real Physical relationship with each other, but only Mental relationships with each other, based on using each other as a source of Mental fulfillment of some some Need / Desire for a feeling that enables us to suppress / hide from our fears and loneliness.
So, something is fundaMentally mis-aligned in our starting point we're existing in from a very young age, where instead of developing as a Living, Expressing, Self Fulfilled being, able to simply enjoy ourselves with another / express ourselves with each other -- we develop within a starting point of Neediness, Fear of loss, Desire, and Obsession -- where we literally will make it our sole purpose in life to have people around us that tell us they think we're special - so we can feel good about ourselves. Really? Is that love? Is that a valid, self honest relationship?
More in the next post...