"Just try to understand this, and the split will disappear. It is not there in your being, but just in your mind, just an idea. Drop the idea and enjoy freedom, and sometimes discipline.
"Discipline has its own beauty, it is not all slavery. And freedom has its own dangers and is not all beautiful. A real person is always capable of infinite discipline and infinite freedom – he is not a slave or an addict to anything."
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the word Freedom with the belief / idea / fantasy that when I die, I will be 'free' from what this world exists as, and I won't have to deal with 'this world' anymore
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be self honest with myself, about my starting point being that -- the real reason the idea of higher dimensions / ascension / spirituality appeals to me / feels so good / feels so right --- is the simple point of 'I don't Like this world as it exists / I don't Want to deal with this world as it exists'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself lose myself within all the wonderful, fun fantasies and pictures and feelings associated with the ideas of higher dimensions / heaven / ascension / light and love, to the point where I have not been honest with myself that -- I don't actually have any clue how to lead this world into a New Age -- I actually in fact only know how to keep accepting the system as it is and participating in the system as it is - and that all I've done is change my personality to be more 'positive' -- which I was able to do because I allowed myself to believe that there exists a point through death or through 'ascension' within which I will be 'free' from having to deal with this world anymore -- which is actually not something I see / am aware of - but is just an assumption -- which enabled me to fuel my 'positive attitude -- not seeing and realizing that -- if I were to discover that there is in fact no higher dimension / heaven waiting for me when I die --- my positivity would cease to exist and is therefore = not real but just energy generated through defining myself within a specific belief / assumption / idea which shows that actually -- energy is not the Source -- the Source of Energy is the Physical which is the very Platform that enabled me / allowed me to structure my belief system through my Physical Body's information processing ability through which I generated my Personality / Energy
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I am believing that the way to free this world / humanity from war / conflict / poverty / inequality is through spreading a message that promotes feeling good / positive / loving based on a Dependence upon the Assumption that there exists some point after death through which I will be 'free' from having to deal with this world any more -- then I am merely promoting a coping mechanism / method -- like a drug -- that is not based on any actual practical research / insight into supporting Life on Earth at a Physical, Sustainable Level -- but is just a 'Positive Attitude' based on an Assumed point of 'Freedom' that we can all apparently 'look forward to' after death
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that what this world needs is not a 'positive attitude / feelings' based on made up fantasies about a blissful afterlife free from responsibility -- but that what this world needs is Human Beings who are Free from the desire to escape this reality, Free from the desire to 'Send our Ass' to a higher dimension, Free from the addiction to Hope, Free from the addiction to Beliefs, Free from the addiction to Fantasies, Free from the addiction to Imagination, Free from the addiction to Self Interest -- Free to Stand Here in the Physical and work together as One in this One Reality that is our One Body to Show the Way to a New World through demonstrating / showing through practical written examples how we can implement changes within the world at a Practical level within the Context of the Structure of the World System / Resource Management in a way where it will be possible for everyone to have Dignified Life with All Human Rights fulfilled - a way where everyone is Guaranteed food, water, a home, education, a job, comfort, free time, freedom from abuse, freedom from exploitation --- none of which is dependent on any form of belief / assumption about the afterlife, and none of which is dependent on 'love and light', and none of which is dependent on pretty words or pretty pictures