Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Day 75: Is Having Children my Natural Right? - Part 1


This post is inspired by Activist's Journey to Life post: Day 105: What Makes Us Human (Moomans?).
The character I'm looking at here is the character that says: "I can go into a relationship and have sex, therefore I have the right to have a child, because that's what humans do, they have children and I am a human and so it is nature's way that I can have my child and nature will ensure my child develops in the best way".

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that just because I 'naturally' have the physiological ability to conceive and birth a child, that something called a 'force of nature' will just 'take care of' my child's development -- instead of realizing and seeing the obvious fact that parents -- through and as the starting point of existing within and as their own accepted nature as beliefs, culture, religion, opinions, judgments, reactions, feelings, emotions, thoughts, secrets, lies, imagination, memories, are the 'force' that influences the nature of the child's development into and as the nature they will accept of themselves

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that 'human nature' as thoughts, feelings, emotions, reactions, memories, desires, opinions, beliefs, secrets, lies, imagination, etc was not created by 'Nature', but was created by the individual through many breaths within which the human made many acceptances and allowances within themselves, to create the patterns that constitute the above described 'human nature' - as has been without a doubt proven extensively, specifically, and consistently by Destonians - those writing the Journey to Life Blogs and walking the Desteni I process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I experience a feeling I call 'love' toward another human being and go into a relationship with them, that this 'feeling' indicates I am ready to have children -- instead of seeing and realizing that the feeling of love I experience toward another human being I have created myself through designing in my mind, over years of time and many breaths spent in participating in and creating thoughts, desires, beliefs, preferences, judgments, etc, wherein I then projected in my mind the 'perfect mate' as the object that stands as a conglomeration of symbols as physical appearance, physical movements, voice tonality, status, culture, language, name, opinions, beliefs, that represent the fulfillment of my desires, beliefs, preferences, judgments, etc -- where, in my mind, from the initial starting point of accepting myself as an experience of loneliness, unfulfilment, sadness, fear - I created in my mind a character that would say all the things and do all the things that would give me the opposite experience of my initial starting point - as happiness, togetherness, love, safety, etc, along with the desire to have children / raise a family so I can feel like I am leaving something behind in this world when I die so I don't feel insignificant and meaningless -- and wherein then when I meet a person that is in close alignment with the character as 'perfect mate' I designed in my mind, I experience a 'connection' and feeling of 'love'

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it was not 'nature' that was responsible for my desire for a relationship and children and my process of creating and projecting the 'perfect mate' in my mind, and thus was was not responsible for my experience of 'love' or my 'urge' to have children -- I was responsible, I am responsible -- I am the force of nature that created my nature as desire for relationship, children, and experience of love as the fulfillment of my desire based on my initial accepted starting point of fear, loneliness, sadness, unfulfilment, meaninglessness, etc

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that in spite of this clear evidence that I am the one who created my experience of love - not 'nature' - that the institutions of science and religion claim that 'love' is a 'natural part of being human' -- showing that science and religion have absolutely no understanding of how the mind and human nature works, and thus exist as self deception -- and that then from the starting point of this self deception, we bring children into this world, claiming that some invisible force of nature is responsible for the whole process of creating relationships and having children when we are the ones who created the process - we just weren't aware of what we were doing because we were trained by our own parents and teachers to immediately believe that what we create in our mind as feelings, emotions, thoughts, pictures is 'who we are' -- and then lost ourselves in our own minds, where all we could do was then copy what other human beings are doing / have done, because we had no other context in which to see ourselves

I my next post I will continue in expanding the Self Forgiveness on this point into the context of the Money System.

Monday, July 30, 2012

Day 74: My Channeling Experience - Self Commitment Statements


Self Commitment statements in continuation of my last post.

I commit myself to show that if one is not self honest here in every moment of breath then one will never see what is real or be able to assist and support life in this world --where, it is common sense that one should be here in every moment of breath in actual self awareness investigating, uncovering, seeing, realizing exactly what one is accepting and allowing as one's starting point and seeing whether one's starting point stands eternal as that which will produce what is best for all life, or whether one's starting point accepts and allowing separation from life through self interest - which will create consequence - such as the consequences as poverty, starvation, war, greed, corruption, rape, crime, abuse -- all the consequence of accepted and allowed self interest instead of all standing together as Life to live what is best for all

I commit myself to show that channeled messages are entertainment that plays on and feeds the hopes and desires of human beings as self interest, and that if one goes and investigates channeled material and the questions asked of the 'beings' being channeled, one will see that there has never ever ever ever ever been any practical questioning and answering that has assisted anyone to come to any practical solution to develop a ways to support all life equally to live in dignity in this world without suffering and abuse -- but that all channeled message only justify suffering through diverting attention from reality into the mind as the person's self interest

I commit myself to show that we actually create our minds as thoughts, feelings, emotions, fantasies, inner conversations, desires, fears -- we create beings upon beings, entities upon entities within our own minds - all existing as self interest with no consideration of what is best for all life -  and allow these entities to live on our behalf - directing our participation as physical bodies -- through accumulating knowledge and information and ideas with no self honesty and no self awareness, and constructing characters in our minds using this knowledge and information and ideas -- wherein, if we were self honest we would see we do not need to create a mind character because we can just be here as the physical body, breathing, living together in the physical in a way that is best for all and thus all mind characters as thoughts, feelings, emotions, desires, pictures, fantasies, memories, are Illusion -- and channeled messages in this world only interface / interact with / impulse the mind characters as illusion we've created and that thus channeled messages are not assisting life in any way -- but only assisting mind characters as illusion to experience themselves as mental masturbation that never results in any practical action taken to support life in establishing a real solution for this world in all ways

I commit myself to show that a channeler is not even aware of where / when / how they created their own voices in the mind as their own thoughts and backchat - and that thus the channeler cannot be trusted when they say they are 'communicating with a higher being', as the channeler has not taken responsibility for what they have created as their own mind, and still accept and allow their thoughts, feelings, emotions, desires, imagination, backchat, to direct them and influence them and thus they are not even aware if they have created the 'being' they are channeling, which is now communicating with them within their own mind, from within the layers of their own mind

I commit myself to show that phenomena such as 'channeling experiences' should not be taken / accepted at face value -- as both the channeler and the people listening to the channeler must first take responsibility to learn how their minds work and understand how the creation of thoughts, feelings, emotions, characters in the mind actually works -- so that they can be sure they're not just having a mindfuck they created in unawareness

I see and realize that the reason I did not question this apparent 'higher being' my partner was 'channeling', as to what is the practical solution to support life on earth and end all abuse -- and the reason why this 'higher being' did not question me as to why I was not asking how to support all life on earth and end abuse, was because the whole experience was a mindfuck of self interest that could not have existed without us first having spent hours and hours accumulating knowledge and information of spirituality / channeling and creating ourselves as characters defined by desires / fantasies / imagination within our own minds -- in self interest, without any consideration of Life

I see and realize that the reason I was excited by this 'channeling experience' was because it was an event aligned with my self interest / self definitions -- and that thus my excitement and perception that this channeling experience was somehow some 'divine plan' I was part of, was complete self deception, as how could anything that is not based on what will produce a world that is in all ways best for all life, be divine?

I commit myself to stop supporting the mindfuck of channeled messages of hope and imagination and pretty words, in seeing that it is only resulting in more people becoming consumed in preoccupation with their own self interest and is not producing a practical solution to end abuse in this world

I commit myself to show how channeling is a profession used to make money and that it supports people to remain within acceptance of the abusive money system through deluding themselves with hope and imagination based on pretty words the channelers speak

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Day 73: My Channeling Experience Part 2: Self Forgiveness Statements


Self Forgiveness statements in continuation of my last post.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I never once considered how I could crosscheck my girlfriend's 'channeling state' to make sure it was not just her own mind, and within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in accepting the experience she told me she was having, as-is without any consideration or investigation or questioning, I was showing to myself that I was actually brainwashed by my own spiritual beliefs and fantasies and ideas that I liked - and validating / confirming / experiencing my beliefs and fantasies and ideas was all I was interested in - to the point where I could be easily deceived as long as someone would use the words and ideas that I liked / supported my self definition -- because -- I had no self honesty, just self interest and thus accepted anything that fit within my self interest

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that both me and my girlfriend had spent hours reading spiritual material and had spent hours creating thought patterns, fantasies, desires, ideas, interpretations, beliefs, wants, based on the material we read, and that we were not even aware that the reason we liked spiritual material was because we had specific desires and fears that we had formulated in relation to life, relationships, money, the afterlife, and the spiritual material told us what we wanted to hear according to our desires and fears and since we had not ever taken responsibility for what we create in our minds as thoughts, feelings, and emotions, and believed and accepted our thoughts, feelings, and emotions to be who we really are, we thus allowed ourselves to be brainwashed by the material we read, where we took the knowledge and information and created points of hope, more points of desire, more points of fantasies, projections, wants, interpretations, beliefs, ideas, visualizations -- all according to our individual self interest -- and thus if were were not even aware of our starting point within all this, not even seeing that we had created an entire alternate reality in and as our minds according to self interest, how could we possible say -- we could easily have created the channeling experience without even being aware of it

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that to investigate reality effectively, to uncover whether in fact there are 'higher beings' -- I would have to make sure my starting point of and as myself is completely clear and self honest -- where I would be here breathing as my physical body, immediately seeing if I would start to create an idea / belief / desire / fantasy / interpretation within my mind - and I would stop myself and and return to breath here -- in realizing that to investigate reality my starting point must be me here, breathing with and as the real reality as the physical that is here regardless of my beliefs -- not an alternate reality of illusion I create as imagination according to my self interest within my own mind -- because then I would not be seeing reality - I would be seeing my own illusion in my own mind, projected onto reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that my channeling experience was part of a 'divine plan' unfolding - instead of realizing that there was no divine plan, and no god -- because if I had been self honest and actually self aware I would have seen that I had gradually created myself as a character in my mind constructed out of the information, ideas, definitions, stories I read in spirituality, and within my mind as this spiritual character I had placed myself within an alternate reality context also within my mind - an alternate version of earth that I constructed using the ideas and stories and and information I read in spirituality -- and wherein my thoughts, feelings and emotions were the energetic experience of this character in my mind -- where my thoughts, feelings, and emotions always reflected the self interest of the character I had created in my mind as the 'spiritual me' and wherein in facing actual physical reality here -- I really understood nothing of how this reality functions, and did not see what is actually going on 'behind the scenes' / behind the picture -- and thus, my channeling experience was in no way part of some 'divine plan' -- as the entire experience I had within myself of interpreting / perceiving the 'channeling' consisted of my own self created experience as a character within and through my own mind within which god / divinity / divine plans existed as my own ideas, beliefs and fantasies based on stories I read -- I in fact was not connected in any way to any god or divinity or higher reality -- I was connected to a video game in my mind that I was playing, completely devoid of self awareness and self honesty as I simply believed whatever experience arose within me, not realizing and seeing that I created my experiences one and equal to my starting point of what I was accepting and allowing myself to believe / create / participate in within my mind

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I was faced with asking a question of this 'higher self / being', I did not direct myself to ask a question -- it was the spiritual character consisting of programs of beliefs, ideas, fantasies, desires, wants, imagination, knowledge and information that directed the question for me, wherein the question 'who are you', and 'where are you' came after I accessed my imagination as the spiritual character, according to the most prominent point of self interest in me which was to contact UFOs / Aliens -- where, the idea of contacting aliens triggered a feeling experience of excitement / hope, and then within this the question formed - within the starting point of seeking / wanting / desiring / hoping for a response that will be in alignment with my hopes / desires / wants

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that as this spiritual character in my mind, I was of no benefit to life whatsoever - as I did not even for one second consider any question that could assist and support Life in me coming to any insight / realization / understanding of how to stop abuse in this world -- but I existed entirely as self interest, as a program of self interest, functioning as a character in my mind within an alternate reality I built in my mind using ideas I like which fit within my self interest -- completely removed from the physical reality as Earth as our actual Equal and One Shared reality that gave us life as human beings -- where I was separated from our actual Equality and Oneness as Life in the Physical, into my own mind of self interest where Oneness included only Me and My experience, and I believed that reality Equals My Self Interest

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that, as this spiritual character in my mind, the reason I became excited about becoming a 'successful channeling couple', was because I imagined making money doing this - making money doing something that I felt happy / good about as it was in alignment with my definitions of myself as the spiritual character in my mind

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that, had we developed our 'channeling experience' further, and actually started doing public appearances / writing books as I imagined us doing -- the only message we would have spread would have been based in our own minds as our own spiritual characters of self interest as desires, hopes, beliefs, wants, fantasies, interpretations, where we would have assisted human beings to create themselves as similar characters in their own minds -- and why? Because as the spiritual character I was happy, I felt good -- because I as the spiritual character was based on ideas / beliefs that explained all the troubles of the world away with beautiful words -- making everything seem perfect and fine and filled with hope -- so we would have become just another 'hope spreading' spiritual character couple --- where, we had absolutely no practical understanding of how this world works in terms of the world system / money system and all the institutions / infrastructure within and as it, and no insight into how even our own physical bodies function beyond the observations of science -- and we had absolutely no practical solution for any problem of this world such as poverty, starvation, war, and all the extensive amount of various abuse going on daily in this world -- and thus we would have been of no benefit to life whatsoever -- only of benefit to people with money who could make themselves feel happy by creating themselves as a spiritual character in their mind -- which would in the end benefit the most powerful elite in this world who abuse life in the name of profit and personal gain because we would have been spreading the acceptance of the current money system / world system through the delusion of hope and happiness as the preoccupation / distraction of self interest that keeps human beings from taking any action whatsoever to stand together and work together to actually make a difference in this world

To be continued with Self Corrective Commitment statements in my next post.

Saturday, July 28, 2012

Day 72: Deconstructing my Channeling Experience - Part 1


Alright, I'm now going to walk through quite a fascinating 'spiritual experience' from my past. The 'channeling' experience. To be more specific, the experience of being with the person I was then in a relationship with, when she entered a 'channeling state'.

Now, in my last few posts I've been deconstructing quotes from a book written by 'Esther and Jerry Hicks'. And, the way this book was written was that the husband would ask questions to the 'being' that the wife was channeling, and my 'channeling experience' worked the same way.

One evening we were sitting in my girlfriend's room on her bed, and she told me that she could right now talk to her 'higher self', and explained that she would sometimes go into these moments in which she experienced that she was 'open' to receive communications from her 'higher self'. Now, the reason we had started a relationship was because, right from the beginning we shared an interest in spirituality, new age, law of attraction, positive thinking, and I had shared with her all my knowledge about UFOS / aliens and my experience with seeing the 'blue light UFO' (see my post on deconstructing my UFO experience). And we perceived and believed that because we shared these interests, that we were 'meant to be with each other', and that we were 'soul mates' who had been with each other in 'past lives', and who always 'found each other' from life to life. We had at that stage spent hours and hours talking about how we want to use the law of attraction to become successful so we can spread the message of spirituality, with her as an actor and me as an artist.

So, we were sitting on her bed and she told me she was now in a 'channeling state', and that she had access to communications from her higher self, and that we should ask questions. I was immediately very excited, because I had read about channelers and thought the idea of receiving communications from 'higher beings' somewhere in 'higher dimensions' was really cool -- and now it was happening to me! Oh my god this is so awesome, my life is becoming cooler and cooler! I now had the opportunity to ask a 'higher being' any question I could imagine. Well, interestingly, I sat there for a moment completely blank, struggling to come up with a question to ask this 'higher being'. Finally, I asked 'who are you?' My girlfriend replied 'my higher self' -- because, the way it worked was that she would 'receive' the answer, and then speak it to me. I then asked, 'where are you?' She replied and made a gesture with her hand indicating 'up above, above us', like in space.
After these questions, my girlfriend indicated to me that she had 'gone out of' the channeling state, and the experience was then over.

Now, as I was trying to come up with a question to ask, I really could not think of anything to ask, but then I started imagining that maybe this higher being is in a spaceship up above in space, like all the aliens I was reading about in the 'galactic federation', and that's why I then asked 'who are you' and 'where are you'.

When the experience ended, the excitement gradually faded and we just 'went on with our lives'. But I was satisfied and quite happy, telling myself that I had finally found the relationship I'm supposed to be in, and that there is a great plan at work here, and a great purpose unfolding for us, where we are destined to become renowned as a 'channeling couple'.

It's really quite bizarre looking back at this experience, for a number of reasons. Firstly, why is it that when faced with asking an apparently 'higher being' that 'knows and sees all' any question I wanted, that the only questions I could come up with, arose within me only after I accessed my imagination in relation to the point of 'wow it would be really cool if this higher being is an alien in a spaceship that I could communicate with'? Why is it that the only point that existed within me when faced with asking a question, was an idea / fantasy I liked, that related to my definition of myself as a lightworker / UFO contactee? I mean, as a lightworker was I really interested in changing the world? Was I really interested in understanding how things work? Did I consider or grasp the implications of the existence of apparent 'higher beings' being channeled by someone who just 'spontaneously' entered into a 'channeling state, and who was not in fact aware of / seeing / understanding what was going on, but could only 'receive' information'? Was I interested in getting answers I could apply in understanding how to come to a solution to support life in this world? Or did I just want this 'higher being' to confirm and validate my definition of myself as a lightworker? In looking at who I was within that stage of my life, my vocabulary was even limited to the words I read in the messages and stories on spiritual websites, so would I even have been able to formulate a question about anything other than my own self definition I had formed using the definition and ideas I read within spirituality?

I mean basically I was a character constructed / programmed with the stories, ideas, messages of spirituality, who could only speak that which fit within my program as a lightworker character. And really the only information I pursued at that stage was information about light workers, UFOS, aliens, ascended masters, heaven, angels, meditation, ascension -- my entire starting point was that of 'how can I experience myself more and more as a lightworker? How can I gain access to more energy and feel more connected to a higher reality?' So, what was the point of such a channeling experience anyway? Was I really 'accessing' some 'higher, greater' dimension of reality? Was I really more 'important' than anyone else in having this experience? Was there really a 'great divine plan' at work, that I was part of? Was I of any benefit to life at all? Or was I, within this channeling experience, as with my other spiritual experiences I've deconstructed, seeking only my own benefit as the experiences I wanted to have?

To be continued with Self Forgiveness statements to follow in my next post.

Friday, July 27, 2012

Day 71: Deconstructing Ask and It is Given - Part 6


More self forgiveness statements, with self corrective commitment statements in continuation of my last post deconstructing the following quote:

"Every physical Being on your planet is your partner in co-creation, and if you would accept that and appreciate the diversity of beliefs and desires-all of you would have more expansive, satisfying, and fulfilling experiences."

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason starvation and poverty exists, is because inequality is allowed by human beings who have created themselves as characters of beliefs and desires in their mind in separation of themselves as the physical human body that could be here doing what is best for all life in realizing that what is best for all is best for each

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason people walk into movie theaters and shoot people with guns, is because they have created themselves as a character of beliefs and desires in their mind in separation of themselves as the physical human body that could be here doing what is best for all life in realizing that what is best for all is best for each

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason people rape children, is because they have created themselves as a character of beliefs and desires in their mind in separation of themselves as the physical human body that could be here doing what is best for all life in realizing that what is best for all is best for each

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason people allow abuse to exist as they occupy themselves with imagination, fantasies, and hopes about a heavenly experience after death, is because they created themselves as a character of beliefs and desires in their mind in separation of themselves as the physical human body that could be here doing what is best for all life in realizing that what is best for all is best for each

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in accepting the starting point of co-creation on earth to be one's personal beliefs and desires, we allow ourselves to create a world of characters that exist in and as self interest, manifesting conflict of interest and the necessity to have a system of control - in separation of ourselves as physical human bodies that could be here doing what is best for all as principled living in agreement to care for each other and all life forms on earth - so that we could co-create heaven on earth / peace on earth

I commit myself to show that in accepting beliefs and desires as the starting point of creation, it is not possible for all beings equally to reach their full expression and have a fulfilling experience on earth, as for all to have a fulfilling experience on earth, we all must live as the same directive principle that stands as what is best for all, whereas beliefs and desires are not a directive principle that is best for all, but an experience of self interest

I commit myself to show that spirituality and new age is the promotion of the experience of self interest as the foundation of creation on earth, and that there is no directive principle within spirituality that can be practically lived equally by all to produce a world that is best for all

I commit myself to show how spirituality promotes the creation of characters of beliefs and desires as self interest through presenting ideas of god / divine plans / karma to remove oneself from one's responsibility to care for life on earth and justify remaining in self interest, in separation of our oneness as physical bodies that could be here working together as one to create a world that is best for all

I commit myself to stop pretending that I do not see the consequence of accepting beliefs and desires as the starting point of creation

I commit myself to stop lying to myself that my beliefs and desires are what is best, and to face the truth of what we are creating, accepting and allowing on earth as the consequence of self interest as beliefs and desires

I commit myself to show that it is evil to pursue ones beliefs and desires when half the world is in poverty struggling daily to fulfill even the most basic needs

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself and humanity to co-create ourselves as characters of beliefs and desires, and to stand up and take responsibility for life and not accept or allow anything less than a world that is best for all life

I commit myself to appreciate Life instead of my beliefs and desires

I commit myself to show how as co-creators on earth we exist in a co-dependent relationship with each other, animals, and nature, and that if we do not stand together to co-create what is best for all through all living as the same directive principle that considers what is best for all living beings on earth, we are doomed

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Day 70: Deconstructing Ask and It is Given - Part 5


Continuing my deconstruction of Ask and It is Given, by Esther and Jerry Hicks, having a look at the following quote:

"Every physical Being on your planet is your partner in co-creation, and if you would accept that and appreciate the diversity of beliefs and desires-all of you would have more expansive, satisfying, and fulfilling experiences."

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as partners in co-creation of the earth experience, human beings are supposed to be the caretakers of life who appreciate each other as equals and give equally to each other the support the earth provides so that humanity can as equals assist and support the diversity of life forms on earth to reach their fullest self expression

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the most expansive, satisfying, and fulfilling experiences are that of assisting and supporting all life to reach its fullest expression, within applying ourselves in shaping this world into a place that facilitates the best experience for All Equally - so that we can have the satisfaction of a world where no one need fear for their survival - which would be Peace on Earth

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize and see that it is because we Accept ourselves to exist within and as the starting point of appreciating / valuing our own beliefs and desires instead of what is best for all life, that we have created a world of abuse and inequality, because to have 'my own' beliefs and desires - everyone else must also have 'their own' beliefs and desires, and in this we have allowed all forms of abuse to manifest as the consequence of our Acceptance of each appreciating / valuing their own beliefs and desires instead of appreciating / valuing Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that only when you have money does it become so easy to say 'I accept and appreciate the diversity of beliefs and desires of others', because you have the means to support your own beliefs and desires which only comes after you have achieved enough money to support your basic PHYSICAL requirements for survival and ease -- but within this not wanting to see that it is the belief and desire of some, to have power and control over the Earth's resources so they can 'have it all', and that the money system has been deliberately designed to trap the majority into a struggle for survival so that they will do the jobs required to be done to enable a few at the top to have a nice life of ease, and where the best jobs that get the best money require the best education and that the best education has been deliberately designed to only be available to a select few so that only a few end up having lots of money, while the real majority in this world spend their entire life focusing only on the point of survival, doing the jobs that the elite do not want to do - the slaves to the belief and desire of a few who want to have it all for themselves and who have managed to assert / impose their beliefs and desires onto the the entire world through gaining control of / claiming ownership of the support given by the Earth

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that those who cannot get money, cannot have an 'expansive, satisfying, and fulfilling experience' within 'accepting and appreciating the diversity of beliefs and desires' of others -- because, they don't have the money to Fulfill and Satisfy their basic survival needs at a Physical level

To be continued in tomorrow's post

Wednesday, July 25, 2012

Day 69: Deconstructing Ask and It is Given - Part 4


Self Corrective Commitment statements in continuation of my last post deconstructing the following quote from Ask and It is Given, by Esther and Jerry Hicks:
"…As you enthusiastically made the decision to come into this physical body and create in this way, you understood, from your Non-Physical vantage point, that this physical world was not broken and in need of repair and you did not come forth to fix it."


When and as I am reading websites / books and encounter messages 'describing' the afterlife, or telling me 'what I decided / chose', 'before I came to this physical world' -- I immediately stop and investigate the starting point of what I am reading, to see if it is suggesting I direct my attention into my mind into imagination based on beliefs within hope / desires / expectations as self interest, rather than directing my attention to the matters at hand in this world that require attention: like poverty, starvation, abuse -- and I remind myself that what is relevant / common sense is to dedicate myself to ensuring that the world that the children to come will be born into, is a world of equal support no matter when / where a child / being is born into this world

I see and realize that it is easy to make up beliefs about the afterlife that make me feel like I am not responsible for the abuse that exists in this world - such as the belief that starving children 'chose' the experience of starvation at a 'higher, non physical level' -- and that if I have any self respect and consideration for life, I will place myself in the shoes of those who suffer and ask myself if I would like those in a more fortunate position to ignore me and justify my suffering through beliefs, or if I would like those in a more fortunate position to stand together and use their resources and time to come up with a solution to end my unnecessary suffering -- in realizing that the earth provides support free of charge to all beings - and yet this support is denied to billions of people deliberately in the name of making a profit off the survival needs of beings -- and that thus it is spiteful to claim suffering is the choice of the being when we could in fact agree to give the support of the earth equal to all

I commit myself to show that the human being broke the natural order of the earth -- where, in common sense we are here to be the shepherds of earth that together care for all living beings, but have separated ourselves from this responsibility through our individual self interest where we agreed that we must all have our individual self interest instead of standing together equally within the same starting point, and thus manifested a system that does not care for all beings equally but rather abuses and exploits beings for labor and resources to fuel and support only the self interest experiences of a small minority of the population

I commit myself to show that the ones who claim 'it is not my responsibility to fix the world' are the ones who have brainwashed themselves with religion and spirituality as the belief that 'everything is perfect and part of the divine plan' -- and that the ones who spread this message are the ones who actually have the means to stand together and fix this world, making it a place that supports all life - but have not done this because of the fear of losing / ending the spiritual characters we have created ourselves as in our minds

I commit myself to show that the only world that is not broken, is a world where each and every being stand together as equals as life as the Whole in doing what is best for all

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing the opportunity of life of billions of beings to be broken by a money system that does not value life and allows poverty and starvation and crime due to lack of money

I commit myself to show that the only reason one would look at poverty, starvation, war, greed, abuse, torture, rape and say 'this world is not broken, everything is fine' -- is because one has gone mad with fear of reality and removed themselves from reality, placing themselves completely into an illusion in their own mind based entirely on the self interest of desperately trying to feel good to not have to face the fear of reality

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in coming forth into this world in a circumstance within which I have money and education and support and can reach people with my voice - I am the one with the responsibility to fix this world, but to do this I have to give up my self interest and decide that who I am is Life, and then live this decision in walking a process of facing and stopping all self interest / separation I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as, and exposing all self interest as separation in this world until all illusions created by beliefs as self interest are broken and all are forced to face our responsibility as the creators of this world -- wherein then we must actually stand together and implement an actual solution to bring all those without money to an equal level with ourselves so that everyone has the opportunity and support to correct their nature to that which is best for all as we have done, and within this realizing that to implement a solution we will have to learn how to realign all industry and institutions of this world to that which is best for all so that we can create a new system within which humanity can be re-educated with practical living in taking responsibility to care for each other and the earth as equals, so that we can all be here as equals as the whole, caring for each other as it is supposed to be

I commit myself to stop my fear of reality with self forgiveness, and to change the way I live and participate in this world from a starting point of self interest, to a starting point of working toward a world that is best for all life, through actually deciding to move myself in understanding the current world system / money system, and researching and investigating how the system can be transformed from abuse, to support given to all life

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Day 68: Deconstructing Ask and It is Given - Part 3


In this post I'm continuing with my Deconstruction of Ask and It is Given, by Esther and Jerry Hicks, working with the following quote:

"You Did Not Come to Fix a Broken World
…As you enthusiastically made the decision to come into this physical body and create in this way, you understood, from your Non-Physical vantage point, that this physical world was not broken and in need of repair and you did not come forth to fix it.
You saw this physical world as a creative environment in which you, and everyone else, could express yourselves creatively and you did not come forth to try to get others to stop doing what they are doing and do something else. You came forth understanding the value in the contrast, and the balance in the variety.
Every physical Being on your planet is your partner in co-creation, and if you would accept that and appreciate the diversity of beliefs and desires-all of you would have more expansive, satisfying, and fulfilling experiences."

Now, before I get into the self forgiveness, I'll mention that the reason I am deconstructing this particular book, is because I myself read it in the 'beginning stages' of my 'spiritual awakening' (see previous posts in which I explain this in detail), where I believed and perceived myself to be a 'lightworker' here to fulfill the 'divine plan' in a perfect existence in which my only responsibility as a being was to 'spread love and light' and make myself feel good. Now, in my 'spiritual stage', I would read things like the above quote, and accept it immediately without any investigation or questioning or consideration whatsoever - simply because I liked the idea of the message, because it was easy to accept, it gave an easy to accept 'explanation' of why the world is what it is, and 'gave me permission' to simply focus on what I want to do and experience in my own life. Basically, what spirituality 'gave me', and gives everyone, is a purpose for 'my self interest.'

But, as I've shown in my previous posts, in looking at the spiritual experience with self honesty and common sense in simply considering what is best for all life, spirituality is clearly not what it sounds like / presents itself to be, as within my self forgiveness I've walked thus far in this blog I've shown how the starting point of participating within / accepting spirituality does not in fact benefit life, but only benefits those who abuse life in the name of profit through our current money system / world system -- as, we as 'spiritual people' are so consumed within our personal mental reality of ideas, self beliefs, fantasies, feelings, energy experiences, that we have blinded ourselves completely to the simple common sense realization that Life is that which has value - and currently, life is not valued in this world, but is used / abused / exploited / enslaved - as only self interest as one's personal mental created alternate reality experience, is valued. Otherwise, we as human beings would have already stood together and come up with a practical solution for this world to end poverty, end starvation, end war, end animal abuse, end the destruction of nature. Instead, what do we do? We present pretty words and pictures and ideas to each other, making ourselves feel good - and we call that 'change', we call that 'care', we call that 'love' - when in fact the only thing we love is our own experience of feelings we create through our beliefs and interpretations of what life is -- the whole time accepting and allowing the abusive money system / word system to continue because - as long as we have access to money we can be comfortable and occupy ourselves with our own life, and we simply do not want to give up this self interest of our own beliefs, our own interpretations, our own feelings, our own experience, to dedicate ourselves to standing together and agreeing to take responsibility for this world within actually acknowledging the real reality that is here going on daily, which does not need to be interpreted / felt, because we can all in fact see directly, equally, the same what is going on in this physical reality and we can all in fact see directly, equally, the same that it is unacceptable to allow beings to suffer because, unlike us, they can't get money.

So we'll now continue with deconstructing the following section from the quote above:

"…As you enthusiastically made the decision to come into this physical body and create in this way, you understood, from your Non-Physical vantage point, that this physical world was not broken and in need of repair and you did not come forth to fix it."

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to be self honest with myself in that I actually realize that I do not in fact see what is after death, and what / where / how I existed before I was born into this life I am experiencing

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to accept and believe any story / explanation I read / hear that is based on the idea that 'everything is perfect just the way it is', and that the 'reason' I 'came here' to this physical reality, is to focus only on creating and experiencing my own experience that I want to have - simply because I like that explanation because it removes me from any point of responsibility for what exists in this world and makes me feel 'at peace' with the world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that from my Physical Vantage Point within this world, as a person with money and access to the internet, news, television - I can in fact see that this world IS broken -- but that, it is not the physical world itself that is broken, it is the human beings in this world that have broken this world and within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that we have broken this world through accepting a broken starting point of ourselves, where from the beginning we accepted a starting point of caring only about ourselves / our experience / those in our immediate world and that over time we created the current world system / money system through some gaining control of the earth's resources and making them available only to those who can get money - through a system of labor / jobs designed to keep people trapped in the struggle for survival, making it possible for a few to profit off the many, and rewarding the continued compliance and acceptance of the system with the 'freedom' to have your own beliefs and own your own things - so that those enslaved to a struggle for survival do not realize they are slaves and become trapped in the experience of 'their own life', augmenting, upgrading, and evolving the 'experience of my own life', making it seem like it is 'more than' what it is, through creating elaborate belief systems called spirituality within which we dream up all kinds of hopes and fantasies about what awaits after death, and pretty explanations / justifications for all the ways we suffer and struggle, so that we make ourselves feel like we are 'free', and that the world is here to support us in being 'free'

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that a broken world is one where poverty and starvation exists and is allowed, as this indicates humanity is broken into separate pieces as 'only me in my life' - not considering self as actually being part of this world, but only considering the parts of this world that 'I can use' to make 'my life nice'

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that those born into poverty and starvation and conditions where the only way to survive is through prostitution, slave labor, crime and violence, have had their opportunity to live and discover themselves as life broken by those who insist on an unequal world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the only reason human beings come up with beliefs about the afterlife, and make up stories about how, the 'reason' that suffering and inequality exists is because it is the 'choice' made by the being experiencing it - a choice made at a 'higher level' in an invisible, made up 'non physical' place, is because we all actually SEE that this world is broken, that the way we live with each other on earth is broken -- because, if we were living together as the whole as equals in a way that is best for all -- all beings would be taken care of and there would be no abuse / suffering to make up justifications for 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in coming forth into this world in a circumstance within which I have money and education and support and can reach people with my voice - I am the one with the responsibility to fix this world, but to do this I have to give up my self interest and decide that who I am is Life, and then live this decision in walking a process of facing and stopping all self interest / separation I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as, and exposing all self interest as separation in this world until all illusions created by beliefs as self interest are broken and all are forced to face our responsibility as the creators of this world -- wherein then we must actually stand together and implement an actual solution to bring all those without money to an equal level with ourselves so that everyone has the opportunity and support to correct their nature to that which is best for all as we have done, and within this realizing that to implement a solution we will have to learn how to realign all industry and institutions of this world to that which is best for all so that we can create a new system within which humanity can be re-educated with practical living in taking responsibility to care for each other and the earth as equals, so that we can all be here as equals as the whole, caring for each other as it is supposed to be

To be continued in my next post where I will walk the Self Corrective Commitment statements for this point, and then in further posts deconstructing the rest of the quote placed at the beginning of this post.

Monday, July 23, 2012

Day 67: Deconstructing Ask and It is Given - Part 2


In this post I am walking Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Commitment statements in relation to the following quote from the book, Ask and It is Given, by Esther and Jerry Hicks.

"Even the cells of your well-tended-to body are having their own experience and are emanating their own preferences-and every preference is recognized by Source and immediately answered, with no exceptions."


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the cells of my body constitute my body as a whole and my body as a whole has certain requirements in order to remain breathing and be able to walk and move around and participate on earth, such as food, water, medical attention, shelter -- and that half the world which is in poverty does not have access to effective support for their bodies, as they do not have enough money - and that is is not 'Source' that recognizes what a body / cells need and provides support, but it is capitalists who recognize what the body / cells need but only make this support available to those who can get enough money, while making sure that support is not available equally to all because otherwise they could not make a profit from selling support to people

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that having a 'well tended body' is only possible with MONEY in this reality, and that there is no magical 'Source' that 'tends to' beings on earth -- but that it is my access to Support  which I purchase with Legal Tender that enables me to Tend to my Body and believe and perceive that I exist in a Tender world - while Tending to ignore the fact that those without money are subjected to the Harsh World of suffering and misery in poverty and starvation and slave labor

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that a Well Tended Body is where we as Humanity Tend to All Living Beings on Earth as the One Body we Share as the Physical as we would like to be Tended to ourselves

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as a person practicing the law of attraction, I accept and believe any idea / story that is told to me which justifies my focus on my own pursuit of happiness, and that I, within my mind have convinced myself that there is some magical 'source' out there that provides everyone with what they need if they just learn how to 'ask' properly -- not realizing my obvious self deception in that I in fact see that without money I cannot live in this world, and I also actually in fact see that most people in this world do not have enough money to live, but I have accepted and allowed myself to become so possessed with my own desires and wants of experiences available within the consumer system, that I will believe anything that makes me feel better about existing in complete self interest

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my preferences are recognized not by Source, but by the Consumer system, when I have Money, and that the Source of my lifestyle experiences is not Source, but is human beings who manufacture and provide goods and services within a capitalist system - goods and services which are only available to me because I have money to buy them / obtain them

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I have enough money I can do all the same things I believe I am in the process of 'attracting' from 'source' through using the law of attraction, and that there are people in this world with enough money that they already do / experience all the things I want to experience - who do not apply the law of attraction, which shows that it is not 'Source' that gives me what I want, it is MONEY

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I am so occupied within my mind of desires, wants, fantasies, imagination, feelings, and emotions and inner conversations as a Money character, that I do not in fact see and realize what the cells of my body would 'prefer' and what they are in fact experiencing - because I am not even here in every moment of breath, aware of each in and out breath of my physical body - and that thus I am nothing more than an Ego that projects my own character as my own self interest onto everything around me claiming that because I have a belief and opinion that makes me feel good, and because I can apparently 'manifest my desires' which is actually just Money bringing me what I Desire through moving that which is already here within the money system, that I apparently understand how reality functions - not seeing and realizing that I don't even understand how the money system functions at all levels, how my body functions at all levels, how my mind actually works and when and where I created each thought in my mind, and each experience of feelings and emotions within me

I commit myself to establish an Equal Money system that will Tend to all beings, Human, Animal, and Plant in Recognition of the Equal Life in All, and in Honor of the Earth as the Source of the support for our Physical Bodies

I commit myself to establish an Equal Money system which will end poverty and starvation and the struggle for survival so that no being must Ask 'why must I suffer while others do not?' - because All will be Given support in Honor of the Given Value of Life

I commit myself to Give Value to Life instead of Giving Value to my own self interest, and to stand in the shoes of All beings on earth and all children to come and Ask myself if this is the world I would like to be Given

I commit myself to Purify my starting point as a Cell of the Body of Earth, through Self Honest Self Forgiveness to stop my self interested delusions and Self Corrective Self-Redefinition Statements through and as which I make the Commitment to Action that will create a world that is best for all

I commit myself to be Here as Breath in actual Self Awareness which is only possible with Self Honesty as Me seeing, investigating, uncovering my starting point in every moment and Asking myself if I am considering what will create a world that is Best for All, or merely considering my own self interest as what I can Own Now to make me Happy

I commit myself to show how there is no magical 'Source' that provides everyone with what they want if they just 'learn to ask properly', and how in accepting that support will only be given after we learn how to ask properly is to accept that support is coming from a source which exists as SPITEFULNESS -- as a child born into this world should not have to learn how to ASK before being GIVEN support, and animals and nature should not have to learn how to ASK before being GIVEN support 

I commit myself to show how saying that poverty only exists because people have not learned how to 'ask Source' for support, is Spitefulness

I commit myself to show how with an Equal Money system - no one would ever be in a condition of Lack and thus no one would apply the law of attraction which shows that the law of attraction is a consumer pastime that makes being a consumer into more of a 'fun game' which benefits those who abuse life for profit as the person practicing the law of attraction will only be focusing on their own 'fun game' of 'manifesting what I want' and will allow all forms of abuse to exist through the spiteful belief that suffering only exists because beings don't know how to ask Source for support

I commit myself to walk in Humbleness before Life in realizing that I have never considered Life, but only considered my own self interest as my own mentally created experience within my own mind

I commit myself to stop presenting myself as if I understand how reality functions when I have not even been here, aware of each breath which shows that I am controlled by my own mind

I commit myself to walk out of the Mind of Illusion into Self Honesty as Life through embarking on the 7 Year Journey to Life

I commit myself to Give to All Life as I would like to Receive


Sunday, July 22, 2012

Day 66: Deconstructing "Ask and It is Given" Part 1


Over the next few days I will be deconstructing quotes from the book 'Ask and It is Given' - A popular book about the Law of Attraction by Esther and Jerry Hicks. 

In the next couple of posts I will be working with the following quote:

"If you do not have the ability to know what you do want, you will not have the ability to know what you do not want. And without the ability to know what you do not want, you could not know what you do want. And so, it is through your exposure to life experience that your natural preferences are born. In fact, these preferences are exuding from you in all moments of every day, at many levels of your Being. Even the cells of your well-tended-to body are having their own experience and are emanating their own preferences-and every preference is recognized by Source and immediately answered, with no exceptions."

In this post I am walking Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Commitment Statements on the following line:

"it is through your exposure to life experience that your natural preferences are born"

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the 'life experiences' of me as a person with access to money who was born into a fortunate environment on earth, are shaped by the consumer system I am in, within which the primary experience is getting money to buy food and basic survival needs, and then getting more money to use to buy luxury items like internet, computers, clothes, cars, homes, electronics, gardening equipment, art supplies, education, books, movies, vacations, music, meditation retreats -- and within which I then also have 'social' experiences which is the formation of relationships with people who have similar amounts of money as me and thus exist within a similar 'dimension' within the consumer system where we 'share' and develop and explore our experiences of having access to various lifestyle points within the consumerism system and use money to build environments within the consumer system consisting of symbols which represent our belief systems as self definitions such as spirituality, new age, religion, philosophy, ascension, etc

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I do not have 'life experiences', I have Money experiences, as I am not here as Life, I am diminished / defined into and as a consumer within a consumer system in which I have defined life as experiencing that which is available through accessing consumerism through having money

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I do not know what my 'natural preferences are' as an actual living being here as Life, because every preference I have is as a character in my mind that believes life is the experience of lifestyles available / accessible with money within consumerism

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I actually investigated my preferences Self Honestly, such as the preference to believe that suffering in this world is justified because those who suffer 'chose' that experience as a 'preference' of their 'higher self', I would see that the consequence of this preferred belief is that I accept and allow a world system of poverty, starvation, destruction and enslavement of the earth and physical beings in the name of profit as self interest - which, if I was actually here standing as Life as all as one as equal - I definitely would NOT prefer myself as Life being abused and destroyed in the name of self interest as the Separation of self from and of Life, turning life into a commodity to be used to create bubbles of preferred experience for people with money

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that for most of the world's population, the 'life experiences' they are exposed to are that of struggle and pain in the fight for survival and that they have no way out as the system is deliberately designed to create poverty in which a person will be motivated by the fear for survival to do any labor required to keep capitalism going so that a few can profit -- and that I would not prefer to be born into poverty to be exposed only to suffering and pain and hardship and fear

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that only with an Equal Money system that values Life, will every child born be supported to live as Life and explore what it is that Life would Naturally prefer as what is Best for Life as that which assists and supports all Life as Equals in the growth and expansion of self expression of Self as Life -- instead of children being born into an environment in which they are only exposed to brainwashing to become a consumer that accepts a system of abuse, or born into poverty and starvation

I commit myself to show how the preferences of human beings are currently conditioned by the consumer system as lifestyle and product preferences, and energy experience preferences based on belief systems - and that what would be Preferred by Life is completely disregarded by the lifestyle characters that exist as the consumers in this world - as what would be preferred by Life is a world that is best for all Life in which consumerism does not exist and only a system where support is given Equal to All Life exists, which the human does not want to see because it is, as the lifestyle character constantly preoccupied with fear for survival suppressed and covered up with happiness as the bliss of owning enough products to exist in one's own bubble and avoid facing the abuse that exists in this world

I commit myself to show that Life experiences in this world currently are determined by one's circumstance of birth and how much money one will be able to get

I commit myself to show how spirituality and new age and self help movements are consumer lifestyles that accept and allow poverty and starvation and greed and abuse to exist through the acceptance of preferring to make one's self feel good instead of taking responsibility to stand and work together to bring an end to capitalism / consumerism and establish a system that honors all life and values all life and supports all life

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing a system in which half the world is in poverty with not enough money to fulfill their basic needs

I commit myself to establish an Equal Money system that honors the obvious natural Preference of Life, which is a world that supports all Life instead of a world that supports the preferences of consumers that are not life but robots brainwashed to pursue happiness as an energetic addiction to hide from fear


Saturday, July 21, 2012

Day 65: Physical Tiredness Vs. Mind Tiredness

 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I am not being engaged with moving pictures, sounds, and 'things happening', and am just sitting doing a repetitive task like clicking the mouse button to rate a blog, that I will and must get 'tired' and 'groggy', and 'sleepy', instead of realizing that this tiredness experience is the mind of characters as energy which require constant stimulation to keep the characters activated through constantly triggering memories which activate the thoughts, backchat, feelings and emotions that constitute the characters -- and that in experiencing tiredness and grogginess and heaviness in my head particularly at the end of the day when I am just sitting fairly still and reading, or rating blogs, indicates that throughout my day I had been in my mind as characters as energy experiences -- even of neutral energy experiences of just 'experiencing me' as 'only me' where I was seeing myself in relationship with / toward what is here, toward the physical environment I was in, seeing it separate from me as I was moving through my day, constantly remembering that 'I am me' as 'this only me that is separate from what is here', constantly creating memories of 'what I was just doing', and warping these memories into projections of 'what I am about to do', where the whole time I am moving through my day as an energetic experience of 'me moving through time' through projecting the past as memories into the future -- and wherein, now at the end of the day when 'not much is going on', and I am just sitting still, I am not 'occupied' with anything -- there is nothing to constantly create memories about and project them into the future - there is no stimulation - and so my 'energy drops', and I go into a 'low energy experience' and my mind starts to shut down saying 'okay, it's time to sleep, the day is done, there is no more stimulation to be had, no more energy to generate, time to rest and get ready for another day of stimulation tomorrow'

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to, when and as this tiredness / grogginess / sleepiness / heaviness 'takes over', Stop - and actually bring myself here in awareness of my physical body and look to see if my physical body is in fact 'tired' and requiring rest

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that, when I see / physical feel that my physical body is not in fact 'tired' -- that indicates that the 'tiredness' experience that has invaded my head area - is an illusion - is just the mind as energy that I had been participating in during my day and which now dropped into a low energy experience because of a lack of stimulation to activate characters through triggering memories

Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, I can actually stop this tiredness / sleepiness / heaviness experience through simply breathing myself back Here into and as my physical body, and deciding to just be here with the physical, here as the physical within which - I as my physical body am not tired. I can breathe the tiredness / sleepiness / heaviness energy out as I breathe myself as awareness back into my physical body, becoming aware of each limb, each part of my body as I sit here, feeling my hands, feeling my fingers, feeling my feet and toes, feeling my head, my neck, my back, my stomach, my chest, feeling the touch of the clothing on my skin, feeling the weight of my body resting in the chair - becoming aware of the physical objects on the desk, the computer, the screen, the mouse in my hand, touching the desk - bringing myself back here completely with what is here physically - and then simply moving myself as the physical - as physical awareness, silent, relaxed, stable, constant, Here, in continuing whatever point I was busy with when I 'became tired / sleepy / groggy'.

I commit myself to, when and as an energetic experience of sleepiness, grogginess, tiredness, heaviness all of a sudden 'invades my head area' and starts 'taking over' and I feel like - I can't continue, I must sleep -- to Stop for a moment, and breathe the energy out of my 'head area', releasing it back into the Earth, as I breathe myself back into my body as physical Awareness, physically giving myself back to myself as I release myself from the apparent 'hold' of the energy that started to 'take over' - in realizing that, the energy cannot 'take over' unless I allow it to, through leaving physical awareness Here, and going into the energy and participating in it

Within this I commit myself to, as I bring myself back to physical awareness here with and as and in my physical body, and here with the physical environment I am in, simply look to see of my physical body is in fact tired - which I will experience as my actual physical muscles being fatigued / tired

I commit myself to show how the sleepiness / grogginess / tiredness / heaviness that invades the head area, is not real tiredness - it is just the Mind as Energy as Characters saying 'I as these characters is not being stimulated sufficiently, therefore I am shutting down until you sleep or go find some point of stimulation so that I can generate more energy for my existence / survival'

I commit myself to show how real tiredness is the physical body's muscles being tired, which will in most cases be the result of actual physical work / effort that was done during the day

I commit myself to show that I as the physical body require only 4 to 6 hours of sleep, and that it is the Mind as Characters of and as Energy that requires long stretches of sleep and will randomly get 'tired' when stimulation is removed

I commit myself to show that it is possible to breathe the illusory tiredness of the mind out as I breathe myself back Here to Physical Awareness, and that within this I have the ability to get lots more done in the time I have during my day / evening

I commit myself to, when and as I wake up in the morning, Breathe myself here as Physical Awareness, with and as my physical body, and as Breath, begin moving myself as my physical body in walking my day, making sure to, as I walk my day and thoughts / memories pop into my mind - immediately Stop and delete the thoughts / memories and breathe myself always back here as Physical Awareness

I commit myself to show that when we all breathe ourselves Here as physical awareness, we see that we are all here together in and as the physical, and in this can see clearly what is best for all, and can move ourselves as the physical in taking the actions required / responsibility required to be taken in sorting out this world together to be a place that supports us all as equals in and as the physical

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing fake tiredness as the mind

I commit myself to decide to be here in every moment as my physical body as the Real character that does not require stimulation in order to exist

I commit myself to show that in creating ourselves into and as characters that exist as energy experiences requiring stimulation, we have fucked up the world, as we have created ourselves into and as a constant struggle to survive / maintain ourselves as energy experiences in self interest to the point where we will ignore poverty and starvation and all forms of abuse that exist daily in this world, simply because the prospect of taking responsibility to move ourselves to work together to sort out this world 'isn't stimulating'

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself and humanity to be slaves to stimulation in self interest, within this accepting and allowing life / the physical to be enslaved into the world system / money system for the purpose of creating stimulation for mind characters of energy

Read Jack's Self Forgiveness on Sleeping
http://desteni.org/a/jack-self-forgiveness-sleeping


Friday, July 20, 2012

Day 64: Deconstructing my Ascended Master Experience part 2

Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Commitment statements on the point of Ascended Masters in continuation of my last post.


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that ascended masters were the same as any other mythical characters in story books and legends, in that even if they did exist - the only effect they had on this world was that they 'lived on' in the minds of human beings as an idea of a character attributed with special powers, just like jesus, saints, vampires, unicorns, giants, leprechauns, where - according to the specific desires, hopes, wishes, fears, values of the person, they will like a character and want it to have been real / be real, and style themselves around the theme of the character they like -- wherein, despite ascended masters being described as masters of love, compassion, wisdom, etc - no human being was applying any practical love, compassion, wisdom in assisting and supporting all life to be supported in this world and wherein the world has in fact gotten worse and worse even as more and more people read about ascended masters and even as ascended masters are supposedly 'helping' the earth in some way -- it is all just invisible ideas in the minds of humans used to make themselves feel like they are changing / realizing something, and that some 'higher beings' are working 'behind the scenes' to change the world -- when in fact the visible physical actions of the human being who applies the 'wisdom' of ascended masters and asks ascended masters for guidance / help reflect only the continued acceptance of the current world system of money as survival, self preservation, the pursuit of happiness -- where love, compassion, wisdom is just ideas not actual lived action that is bringing about any real change in the world

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I read stories / channeled messages about st germain, an 'ascended master', and saw drawings and paintings of this character and immediately felt a 'connection' to this 'master' - the reason I felt a 'connection' was because I related myself to the picture presentation of a character that I saw, of a person the same race as me, with similar facial structure and hair color, that was described as being an 'embodiment' / representation of the fulfillment of my goals ideas / words / fantasies that I had developed / created in my mind as a self definition of myself as the 'ascending being', where, within my mind I saw 'st germain', and ascended masters in general as being 'my goal' in terms of 'where I will eventually end up' and 'who I will eventually end up as' through my process of 'ascension'.

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the real reason I liked these 'ascended masters' was because I liked the way they looked - decked out in flowing, elegant clothing with perfect looks and hairstyles, floating around being great magnificent lords of spirituality that people looked up to and prayed to -- essentially, ascended masters were like the celebrity embodiment / representation of the ideals  / ideas of spirituality -- just as a beautiful, famous celebrity that appears on magazine covers and in movies and is looked up to and admired as the representation / embodiment of how people want to look and the kind of life they want to live, and the kind of attention they want to get -- they want to be the star of the show who is perfect and admired by all -- according to what is presented within the media / advertisements / movies / tv shows as having value -- such as having good looks, a perfect body, people who like you, having a successful life, etc -- in this world celebrities are the representations / examples of complete success with money / the system -- and within spirituality, ascended masters are the representations / examples of complete success with energy

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason I tried to convince myself that maybe I was st. germain in a new incarnation, was because I wanted to be the star, the ideal, the representation / example of success with energy within spirituality -- which, as I described in my previous posts about my 'spiritual awakening', was mostly because I had failed to learn the skills necessary to become successful with money, but found that I was skilled in generating energy / practicing spirituality and thus, the ascended master was my goal -- instead of the 'successful business man' being my goal

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason I wanted to be successful with energy / become a celebrity of energy within spirituality as the 'ascended master', was because I had accepted the definition of life being a game of 'achieving / attaining success' where - in the world system / money system one must find ways of earning money to survive and exist in this world and be able to have a life, and since I had not liked the money making game, I instead participated in the energy making game, striving to achieve the goal of success with energy as a master of spirituality -- but not actually seeing this, wherein I rather told myself I was practicing spirituality / ascension to 'change the world', but where I in fact was only focused on finding ways / methods of generating more energy experiences in myself so I can experience 'more life' through energy, just as with making more and more money, one is able to experience 'more life' within the money system -- and wherein, I was still participating within and accepting the money system / accepting a system of survival / attainment of success through making money, but had aligned my goal with an 'experience of being a spiritual master', instead of an 'experience of being a master of business'

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the goal / starting point of desiring an experience of energy / experience of self as a 'master' of spirituality directly supports capitalism, as those in this world who live as 'masters of spirituality' such as Eckhart Tolle, David Icke, etc - have become successful business people who are able to market methods of experiencing energy to people as a business they use to support their own survival / life within the money system -- and wherein, the energy experiences of these 'masters', and of their followers are not in any way able to be applied in designing and implementing a new system that eliminates survival and gives equal support to all life -- but are merely an individual experience used to make the individual feel like they are 'more than' what / who they 'used to be' -- while the whole time they are living within acceptance and allowance of an abusive money system / world system and not working together to bring about any actual change in this world -- where, the individual is only focused on the goal of achieving a mastery of energy experiences -- where, energy experiences is just a product marketed as any other product within consumerism, where the person buys and applies the product in their daily life as part of their lifestyle / self definition

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that ascended masters are not life - as if they were life they would have used their time here on earth to bring about a system that is best for all -- instead, they send their ass into some higher dimension because apparently they were 'really advanced' to the point where they transcended the physical -- which is a lie because how can anyone 'transcend the physical' without even understanding how to effectively support all living beings on Earth?

I commit myself to show that ascended masters are characters in stories that only exist as an idea in the mind of human beings who have decided it would be cool to look like something 'more than' what they already are - such as a magnificent lord that flies around in a higher dimension doing the work of god -- and that they make themselves 'feel' like they are more than they are, through creating elaborate presentations of themselves and getting attention from others through convincing them that they possess some 'greater understanding' and 'greater level of being' than 'everyone else' -- which is in fact a lie / deception as the whole time they are participating exactly the same way as any other average consumer -- within acceptance of the current world system / money system of survival within which one focus only on how to get money and use money for one's own survival and pursuit of happiness -- not actually understanding how the system works, how we created it, and how we can create a new system that will actually support all life

I commit myself to show that spirituality does not assist and support human beings to become self honest, self aware, responsible beings that care for all life -- but that spirituality is only a product within consumerism that trains human beings to separate themselves from reality within a bubble of fantasies and elaborate self beliefs and ideas where one creates oneself as a character in an alternate reality in the mind in which one sees oneself as a magnificent, advanced, enlightened being and feels really good all the time -- which is the perfect support for wealthy capitalists who abuse life for profit and would not like anyone to understand how the system works and thus benefits from spirituality in that the spiritual person will not ever take action to educate themselves at a practical level as to how the system works, and will not stand together with other human beings to make a real change because each is too busy in their own mind creating their own nice energetic experience as a character that they then present to others to get attention and followers

I commit myself to show how spirituality trains human beings to give so much value to 'experience' that the human will not even acknowledge the extent of self delusion they participate in within their minds in order to create the experience they like / value -- and how this is exactly the same as a greedy capitalist valuing the experience of having money so much that they do not even acknowledge the suffering they allow in order to have a system that enables some to have an experience of lots of money

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself and humanity to define life as the pursuit of attaining success in money and energy, and to show that life is that which is here equal in all as living beings on earth, and that life is not an experience that one attains, but is here as who we are and thus to be life and have a world where only life exists starts with stopping all characters designed as individual experiences of energy based on desires, values, beliefs, knowledge that cannot be practicality lived in the physical as Earth to produce a world that is best for all

I commit myself to show how spirituality values pictures, colors, and pretty words and ideas more than life

I commit myself to show how if ascended masters existed, they never made any difference in this world as the world has only gotten worse and more and more human beings, animals, and nature suffers in agony in the name of a world system that values profit and individual experience more than doing what is best for all life

I commit myself to show that self mastery is to create self as Life through physical lived action to produce a world that is best for all -- and that wanting to send your ass to a 'higher dimension' only means you have accepted and allowed the fear of taking responsibility for Life on Earth to master you in every way

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