accepted and allowed myself to realize that instead of Physically living goodness, care, love in physically structuring a world that is best for all, we've become lost in the Energetic Inertial Mass as feelings and emotions based on picture / idea representations of goodness, care, love - where, the experience of the idea has become an Addiction that has taken priority over the actual physical Living of goodness, are, love - as we found it's easier to create the experience of the Idea, rather than live the word as actual physical reality actions, and ended up coming up with more and more elaborate ideas, stories, and beliefs, to justify our increasing resistance to facing the reality that our ideas of goodness, love, care - do not exist as the reality on earth -- because we haven't in fact researched how to practically apply goodness, love, care in restructuring the world at all levels to support the well being of all forms of life on earth
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that currently the Energetic Inertial Mass of Feelings and thoughts and reactions based on the opinion of the right to live at the expense of others through Capitalism, is the Dominant Energetic Inertial Force on Earth -- because the actual physical system on earth - the money system is structurally designed to facilitate the physical actions of greed, exploitation and abuse -- and that within this, creating an alternative Energetic Inertial Mass of feelings and thoughts of love, care, goodness, positivity, and expecting these experiences to just 'become' the reality of Earth - is self delusion -- as the majority of people on Earth exist within an Energetic Inertial Mass of fear - fear for survival - which motivates crime, violence, conflict -- because the physical structural system of Capitalism is designed within Inequality to facilitate the greed and self interest of only a few -- and that only those who happen to have been fortunate enough to develop the skills and have the connections required to make sufficient money to seclude themselves from the harsh consequences of not having enough money, are those that promote the 'Improved Energetic Inertial Mass' of feelings within ideas of love, goodness, positivity
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that with grand ideas and beliefs and stories of advanced alien beings, angels, archangels, and universal forces of love and goodness, we've within our minds created a made up 'unseen power' that we tell ourselves is doing all the actual 'work' of manifesting our experience of love, goodness, care as actual Reality on Earth
And within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that these made up 'higher powers', strangely keep failing to actually do anything on earth -- and only offer 'messages' for the 'spiritual people', that keep telling us to have hope, and to 'keep doing what you're doing, keep feeling the love and light, keep meditating', because 'the time for magnificent events and changes and transformation on earth is close, is coming, is ever so near, is just around the corner...' -- which is very convenient for those who would like to keep feeling that they're not wasting their time within their pursuit of spirituality -- but not convenient at all for those who are suffering and dying daily as a consequence of not being able to make it in the current money system of inequality
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when the environment supports the continuation of one's Energetic Inertial Mass of thoughts, feelings, and emotions -- one will remain within that Inertial Mass -- a criminal within a system of inequality that has no alternative ability to achieve a nice life, will remain a criminal -- a troubled child lost in depression and anger, in an environment of people who themselves participate in reactions of emotions and cannot explain to the child what they are experiencing - will remain lost in depression and anger and will be directed by the Inertial Mass of their Energetic experience - to for example, shoot up a school full of children. A person with enough money to exist comfortably and avoid the harsh realities of not having money, who has become addicted to feelings of love and bliss and happiness, will remain within acceptance of the system as it is, to protect their environment and remain within their Inertial Mass of love, bliss, and happiness
We'll continue with more Self Forgiveness in the next post.
Recommended Reading: Edward Bernays invented Public Relations and Modern Consumerism through understanding how to manipulate the human through their self interest, by installing desires and feelings toward products.