Day 144: Can the Mind of a Consumer Ever be Free? Self Forgiveness Statements

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my definition of cars / clothing / houses was taught to me by the consumer system I was born into and that I've always only ever considered cars / clothing / houses within the context of a car / clothing item / house being a piece of personal property / extension of personality / style that one 'owns' through going through a process of first earning money to be able to buy cars / clothing / houses and that I've never actually purely considered the point of cars / clothing / houses within the context of what supports the Human Being, that facilitates existing and moving from point A to point B within the Physical Reality in comfort - which is all a car / clothing / house actually is in terms of its practical, REAL existence -- whereas the 'personality' aspect of cars / clothing / houses exists only in the Mind as Values based on one's individual Self Interest of Energy as feelings that have NOTHING to do with actual Physical Reality

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my taste in cars / clothing / houses - in terms of what pictures / feelings / emotions / values as associations pop up in my Mind in relation to a certain 'style' or 'look' in a car / clothing item / house - is not really 'my taste' - is not 'unique', is not 'individual', as if I have a look at how I see myself in my mind, driving a certain kind of car, wearing a certain kind of clothing, living in a certain house, and imagining how I will experience myself - it's primarily based on copied scenes from advertisements, movies, television, in which certain types of characters are driving certain types of cars, wearing certain clothes, living in certain houses - and that the reason I copied these specific scenes is because the particular character / scene / style presented to me, within my mind represented some Value of Self Interest in terms of my Desires / Wants of how I'd like to experience myself and be seen by others: Outdoorsy, Rugged, Environmentalist, Tough, Sexy, Sporty, Goth, Futuristic, Modern, Retro, Mysterious, Successful, Creative, Patriotic, Rebellious, Spiritual, etc, etc

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I was born and raised without exposure to consumerism / media / tv / advertisements / culture - I would not have these scenes popping into my mind - I would not have the desire / want to experience myself and be perceived by others a certain way in terms of what I 'represent' as - Outdoorsy, Rugged, Environmentalist, Tough, Sexy, Sporty, Goth, Futuristic, Modern, Retro, Mysterious, Successful, Creative, Patriotic, Rebellious, Spiritual, etc, etc - because I did not 'come up with' this stuff -- it was already here as part of the Consumer Society I was born into - which shows that my personality / experience / wants / desires with cars is not an expression of Who I Really Am - but is a Character in my mind consisting of designs copied from Media / Movies / TV

This is proven in how a child that is raised by animals in the wild will not walk out of the jungle into a car dealership or clothing store or real estate office and immediately start scanning the shapes and colors of cars, styles of clothes, styles of house and have all kinds of pictures and experiences pop up in their mind where they're seeing themselves driving the car, wearing the clothes, living in the house, and imagining how they'll experience themselves and how others will see / perceive them --- they do not have a self idea / self definition / self value system based on concepts copied from the Consumer System / Media / Movies / TV -- they've not been Transported into the personalized, ongoing window-shopping experience that 'the rest of us' are having, where behind the glass of our glassy eyes, we are constantly placing / arranging / arraying ourselves in various products / styles / settings, refining the scene until we get to an arrangement that fulfills our personalized ideal self image / self definition as a consumer in terms of the Lifestyle experience we'd like to have

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that as long as I define myself / value myself according to Lifestyle Concepts I've copied from the Consumer system / Media, such as Outdoorsy, Rugged, Environmentalist, Tough, Sexy, Sporty, Goth, Futuristic, Modern, Retro, Mysterious, Successful, Creative, Patriotic, Rebellious, Spiritual, etc, etc - I exist as an Energetic Experience - as Feelings that I will try to Survive / Exist as - and for me to Survive / Exist as these Feelings the Consumer system must remain as it is and I will keep Accepting it and will not investigate any other way we as Humanity could exist / any other type of System we could have -- because that would mean I would have to Stop existing as the energy / feelings I've defined myself as, based on Lifestyle Concepts I copied from the Consumer System / Media / Movies / TV

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize and see how I directly support the existence of a Profit Making system that Profits off the Self Interest as Feelings of Human Beings, in defining myself through Feelings / Experiences based on Lifestyle Concepts I copied from the Consumer System / Media / Movies / TV

Within this I forgive myself that I have thus not accepted and allowed myself to realize and see that it doesn't matter how much of an activist / rebel / non-conformist I perceive myself to be -- as long as I am Transported into my Mind in having pictures / scenes / experiences / reactions / feelings / emotions coming up inside me when I look at cars - or houses, or clothes, or furniture, or food, or places to live, or any other element of 'Lifestyle' = that indicates I am functioning as a Robot programmed by Consumerism and that I am not in fact 'Free' to Choose a different way for Humanity to live -- as I will only look for 'change' as a Lifestyle experience / Feeling that will fit within the context of the existing Consumer Society

Thus I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that to really be able to take action in bringing about the end of an abusive, wasteful money system - I will have to walk a process of investigating / uncovering all the ways that I have defined myself through copying the Consumer System into me as concepts / ideas / definitions currently forming the foundation of the Characters / Personalities I exist as / function as / interact with my world and other human beings as - and delete every point where I've copied the Consumer System into me, As Me - walking / Transporting myself out of the Mind as the Mine / Self Interest that drives the Profit System - and re-establish myself Here in Physical Reality in the Context of the Interdependent Physical Relationships between Human, Animal, and Nature -- Where - in removing the Mind Relationships of Energy between me as a Consumer Character and all the other Consumers and Products where my consideration was 'what is best for me as Energy / Feelings / Personality', what remains is What is Best for All within the interdependent Physical Relationships between each Human, Animal, and Plant

Self Commitment Statements will follow in the next post.

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