Day 129: Self Forgiveness on Job Experiences: Learning to use Computers
The thing I've learned about jobs and skills, is that it's simply a matter of learning verbatim the vocabulary required to be able to speak about the products, concepts, subjects involved in the job, and making sure I am consistent and disciplined in walking the practical steps of physically learning the skills involved in performing the job. It's like learning a language; you're not going to be able to speak effectively if you don't have a vocabulary, and you won't have a vocabulary unless you apply yourself in learning words and their definitions.
Most fears and uncertainties that arise about a new job, are simply because one has not actually learned the vocabulary required to speak effectively, and so you wonder 'what will happen', and 'what will I say?', and 'what if I don't know what to say?' - and where, once you learn exactly what to say / what to do in a specific scenario, then there's no more fear because you've prepared yourself to walk into that scenario and direct it with the required words / actions. This is the cool thing about being an Organic Robot - all you have to do is Program yourself effectively so that the job becomes automatic. Like learning how to ride a bicycle or drive a car - it becomes automatic.
Now, within this, it's important that all the definitions involved in the job are clear, and that there exists no word that triggers a reaction of energy as emotions, so that when you're going about your job / learning your job, you're not having reactions of emotions trigger and all of a sudden you're possessed with an energetic experience that fucks with your ability to direct yourself in each moment in learning how to do the job.
An example of this would be if you get a new job and you find out you're required to learn how to use a computer system as part of your duties, and you have a memory where in the past you tried to learn how to use a computer and you just didn't know what to do and you reacted and became frustrated and then believed 'I'm just no good with computers'. Where, in fact the reason you reacted in frustration and believed that you're 'no good with computers' was because you didn't understand / realize the practical steps involved with learning how to use the computer, and had expected yourself to just 'make it work' - and where, when you weren't able to live this expectation, you experienced that you failed and became frustrated and just gave up, believing you just 'can't do it'.
Now, if you're still living this belief that you're 'just no good with computers', then what will happen is that when you get this new job and realize you have to learn how to use a computer system, this memory of 'failing to learn how to use a computer' will activate and you'll find you're filled with emotions all of a sudden - imagining yourself trying to learn how to use the computer system and getting all frustrated. Now, it may be that one then decides 'this job isn't for me', based only on this reaction of emotions triggered by the words 'learn how to use a computer system' - where then one will go and find another job where one does not have to learn how to use a computer system. But this is quite ridiculous because such a decision was not based on what learning how to use a computer system actually consists of - it was just based on an emotional experience. Where - in reality, it wasn't really the computer that one wanted to avoid = it was the emotional experience of frustration.
This is where Writing and Self Forgiveness comes in as an extremely supportive tool, because, instead of just accepting the reaction and the memory, you can go and write out the reaction and the memory - where, in this example you would see that you formed the belief that 'you're just no good with computers', when you experienced a reaction of frustrated when you attempted to learn how to use a computer, and and it didn't go as you expected. Within this you can then ask yourself - do I actually understand the practical steps involved in learning how to use a computer? If you find the answer is 'No' - then you can immediately see that the entire reaction of frustration and the belief that 'I'm just no good with computers', was because you had accepted / believed that when you face a situation where you don't understand how to do something, that means there's something 'wrong' with you -- where, your accepted method of dealing with something that you don't understand how to do, was to react and take it personally and believe you 'can't do it', instead of looking at the situation practically, and directing yourself within common sense in investigating the practical reality of how to learn to use a computer. Within this you then apply Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements to deconstruct the reaction and purify the words 'learn to use a computer' through removing the emotional / energetic / reactive charge from them, for example as follows:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when I didn't understand how to learn to use the computer, react and take it personally and become frustrated and believe that there's something wrong with me, instead of seeing and realizing that I simply didn't see / understand the practical, actual steps involved in learning how to use a computer
Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason I reacted within my mind and created an emotional experience towards computers, was because I never realized that I can direct myself in my reality according to practical common sense of how reality functions - for instance in investigating what steps are involved in learning how to use a computer, and am I able to walk these steps - and so became dependent on my mind to direct me and make decisions for me on my behalf, through reactions of feelings and emotions -- which is obviously less effective and does not support me because the reaction is based on a belief, not on the actual reality of what I'm working with
Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to compromise myself in allowing reactions of emotions and beliefs to sabotage my opportunity to learn skills to support myself with
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed reactions of emotions to decide on my behalf, that I should find another job where I don't have to learn how to use a computer, not realizing that this decision was not based on any actual feedback as to whether it is possible for me to learn how to use the computer - because I didn't even attempt it at all / didn't walk the practical steps to see if I can do it
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the words 'learn how to use a computer' with an emotional experience of fear, fearing experiencing frustration and failure in learning how to use a computer
I see and realize that reactions of emotions and self beliefs are completely irrelevant to the point of learning how to use a computer - as learning how to use a computer is a physical reality process of walking the practical steps of how to use a computer - and I'll either be able to do it, or not -- but I actually have to walk the steps to see if it is possible or not, and thus I commit myself to, when and as I am faced with learning how to use a computer for a job, and a reaction still comes up, to Stop and Breathe, and make a note to go and do further writing to see where I can be more specific in my Self Forgiveness / see what I missed
I commit myself to, when and as I'm faced with learning how to use a computer, to assist and support myself in sticking to common sense in investigating / asking questions about the practical steps involved with learning how to use the computer, whenever I face a point where I don't see / understand what to do
I commit myself to no longer accept or allow reactions of emotions to make decisions for me, but to become the Directive Principle of Myself in always investigating in writing what the reaction is based on, and writing out Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Statements and Action aligned with practical, common sense living, so that I can stop compromising myself / sabotaging myself
I commit myself to, when and as I experience any reaction triggered by a word, to investigate in writing what memories / experiences I have associated / connected with the word, and to remove these associations through writing and Self Forgiveness, and to make sure I have a clear definition of the word established, that is actually what the word means.
Now, isn't it strange how we never learned to do this? How our whole lives we've been controlled by reactions of emotions and feelings, where our decisions are influenced by beliefs and ideas and expectations that are not based in actual physical reality at all? And, when you look at self improvement techniques in this world, none provide this level of specificity in working with the actual issue - it mostly consists of 'thinking positive' and 'believing in yourself' - changing your 'mindset' from that of 'I can't do this', to 'I can do this'. But where this fails is in the case where one has not actually come to a point of practical understanding of the steps required to be walked in changing yourself, and there are so many undefined fears and reactions, that one is continually overwhelmed by energy and eventually gives up and a decision is made based on 'how can I get away from this negative experience into a positive experience', rather than 'how can I best support myself practically in physical reality', where one's decision is not based on 'negative or positive' experiences, but where one's decision is a Self Movement, where you actually Move yourself as your Physical Body.
Now, now can take this perspective and look at humanity as whole in terms of the decisions we make about how we live with each other and with the earth. For example, the decision to dedicate one's life to 'feeling good', and 'not focusing on problems' - problems like poverty, starvation, war, violence - a destructive, abusive money system. If we understood the practicalities of how to solve these problems, wouldn't it then be easy to make the Decision to implement the Solution? Couldn't we then stop ignoring the problem and stop diverting out attention to 'positive experiences'? Wouldn't it then make sense to remove the problems? It's the same as the example of learning how to use the computer -- once you understand how to learn to use the computer, and you see that learning to use the computer would be best, as you would be assisting and supporting yourself to become more effective and expand your abilities - I mean then you no longer have to see the computer as 'negative', and you no longer have to react in fear to the computer and go and seek out a 'positive' experience - you can simply Direct yourself, Move yourself, Express yourself Here working with Practical, Physical Reality - without energy as emotions and feelings directing you as a preprogrammed pattern.
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