Day 103: I worked HARD for MY Money Character: Self Forgiveness


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason I use the statement 'I worked hard for my money' to apparently invalidate an Equal Money system is because I have defined my purpose and my worth through my accomplishment of having worked hard to earn money to survive and have a nice life, and within this I thus require a system of forced labor for my very survival to continue existing, so that I can feel like there was a purpose and meaning to my life of hard work to make money -- wherein if we had an Equality system where the best of everything is Given to everyone, that would mean my entire life of hard work was 'for nothing' -- and wherein I've accepted and allowed myself to go into a point of spitefulness, where I am saying that I'd rather let the world exist in poverty and starvation than to invalidate MY life of hard labor -- so that I can continue to FEEL like there was a reason and purpose for my life of hard work to make money

Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that 'My Life' is not the center of the universe and that my interest of wanting to feel like my life of hard work had a reason, does not take priority over what is Best for All Life on Earth

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that no matter where you are in this world, if you 'work hard' you can become 'successful' -- wherein I believe that in the current money system 'hard work' equates to 'getting money' no matter what -- because that's what I did and therefore everyone else in the world must be in the same position to make money as I was -- instead of realizing that education and jobs are not equally available to everyone and that in many parts of the world there is simply no work available and the only option is crime, and that my individual 'accomplishment' of working hard to earn money, does not indicate a system that works for everyone, it only indicates that it's worked for me 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the world is fine because I was able to work hard and make money -- even in spite of thousands of children dying every day because of starvation and poverty related illness

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the world is fine because I was able to work hard and make money -- even in spite of constantly reading the news and seeing how there are not enough jobs for everyone and NEVER have been

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the world is fine because I was able to work hard and make money -- even in spite of the constant struggle to 'fix the economy' which shows I am in a broken system that does not work and has never worked because the economy is always broken and I know this

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason I defend the current system in which you have to work hard to earn money to have a life, is because I fear to lose what I've managed to earn for myself, and believe that I actually own my life and that thus if the system changed that my life would be 'taken away' and what 'I own' would be 'stolen from me' -- instead of realizing that I never owned my life to begin with -- those who give me my paycheck own my life 

Self Commitment Statements to follow.


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