Day 92: The Consequence of Trusting in Hope
Hoping for Magnificent Events to Happen - Part 3
I'm continuing with additional Self Forgiveness on the 'Hoping for Magnificent Events to Happen' point, as recently Bernard opened up the fascinating point of how Trust always exists, and that we are creating ourselves and our world through what we place our Trust in - and that to change, we must simply place our Trust in what will create a world that is Best for All, and within that, change the way we live and apply ourselves accordingly. Which is what we're doing at Desteni, but this just puts it in a very simple context showing our Responsibility in relation to Trust.
So here we're looking at the dynamic of Trust in relation to 'Hoping for Magnificent Events to Happen'.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in order to place my Trust in an experience of Hope toward a projected fantasy of some magnificent event changing the world, I must Trust that we will continue existing as we are, and that the world must continue to exist as it is --- because in order for me to Create my Experience of Hope in 'magnificent events' happening, a problem which I desire to change, must first exist as the Starting Point - and if the problem were to cease to exist, I could no longer have my experience of hope, which means as long as I exist within and as an experience of Hope that the world will 'change' through 'some magnificent event', I accept and allow the existence of the world's problems to continue, and will never take any action of investigating / living a practical solution into reality -- because to do that, I would have to Trust Myself to Change, which would mean I have to STOP placing my Trust in an experience of Hope
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that my very experience of Hope is based on my Fear of Change, because to Change I would have to Trust Myself and I fear to trust myself because I don't understand how change works, which is why I created fantasies of magnificent events happening that will change the world, and placed my Trust in an experience of Hope, because I do not need to understand HOW to change, in order to create an experience of Hope
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that in placing my Trust in an experience of Hope, I am Trusting the belief that my / Humanity's current accepted Nature will produce Change, in spite of seeing that the daily consequences of our accepted nature are poverty, starvation, war, greed, violence, conflict, hate, self interest - showing that for Change to happen - each and every one of us must Change our Nature
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that placing Trust in the Hope that Evolution will change the world, means I Trust that Humanity's current nature will somehow, by itself without any self directed decision, 'change' -- not seeing that Evolution does not in fact exist, because human nature is created through our moment by moment, breath by breath deliberate decisions based on what we've placed our Trust in - and thus for this world to change, we will have to place our Trust in Ourselves -- and within this we will have to Trust Ourselves to Re-define our definitions of life and living and self and value - in seeing that our participation with each other in this world is based on the Definitions we have placed our Trust in
Thus I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize that the consequence of placing my Trust in Hope is that I perpetuate our current accepted nature and the consequences of our current accepted nature - because I require the consequences of our nature as a world system of abuse, poverty, starvation, war, greed, self interest -- I require a PROBLEM / Negativity to always exist - a Problem that I Desire to Change, as the Starting Point from which I create fantasies of 'events' that will 'change the world', which I then Create the experience Hope / Positivity toward
Self Corrective Commitment Statements to follow in my next post.