Day 83: The Force of Deliberate Decisions



I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that there exist no force of positivity or force of negativity = there exists only the deliberate decision we make in every moment, which will either be in consideration of what is best for all life, or not

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that forces of darkness and light, positivity and negativity are stories we made up in our minds to try and blind ourselves from the simplicity of our responsibility we have in the deliberate decision of who we are in every moment - where, the decision is always simple = I will be and do what is best for all and ensure that what is best for all is the only reality that exists, or I will be and do what is best for me as my self interest and ensure that self interest is the only reality that exists so that I can have my self interest -- wherein, within this equation light and dark, positive and negative is completely irrelevant

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that a lightwarrior / spiritual warrior / positive thinker is a character that is deliberately created in the mind as a way to justify accepting and allowing a world system of abuse to continue, so that I do not have to face the practical considerations and action required to be lived in creating a world that is best for all - where I make up a reason for abuse to exist, calling it 'darkness', and 'negativity' and telling myself that darkness and negativity exists so that I can 'find the light' and 'be the light', and 'find the positive and be the positive' when in fact this is bullshit because abuse is not darkness or negativity based in some 'force of darkness or negativity' it is a deliberate decision based on self interest and where therefore in creating a character of 'the light' I am accepting and allowing the 'dark' / 'negativity' as abuse / decisions of self interest to exist - which I must do in order for me to have my own self interest of 'the light' / 'positivity' as my way of hiding from / denying the simple, raw reality of the decision that is here in every moment of whether I will be / do what is best for all and ensure a world that is best for all, or NOT

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that each moment of breath that I deliberately decide to exist as a character of 'the light', and of 'positivity', I am deliberately deciding to deny / ignore my responsibility to ensure physical practical action is taken to create a world that is best for all, which I actually see does not require any character of 'positivity' or 'the light' -- only a decision to consider all life and dedicate myself to investigating the logistical planning and implementation of a new world system that values life and stops accepting and allowing self interest to direct the way support is given on earth

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that 'the light' and 'positivity' are characters I created that make me feel good because they do not involve any responsibility to develop practical skill and understanding of how to support life, because I reacted and believed I am powerless when I faced the abuse in the world and saw that I did not immediately know how to stop it --- where as the 'light' and as 'positivity' I am hiding in feelings in avoidance of my initial starting point of Fear and Powerlessness when faced with practical points of reality that I did not understand how to take responsibility for / direct in the best way possible -- and that this is the same as when a student who never learned to do math properly reacts with fear and powerlessness when faced with a math problem, and then creates characters like 'well I'm a creative person, not a math person', and 'I'm a free spirit, not an academic person', to make themselves feel good to justify not facing the Fear of the practical point of mathematical skill that they do not yet understand -- within this compromising their potential as a being by hiding their whole life in a character of Feelings created in Fear

Therefore I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the positivity / feel good character is the deliberate decision of self deception in feeling good about allowing fear, and allowing the actual problem that I fear

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is possible to change this world to a place that is best for all life, but it requires Real Skill developed through actual deliberate steps of self education firstly as to how the mind works to ensure that self honesty and self awareness can be applied in making sure that one does not create illusionary characters of feelings and ideas and beliefs to hide from reactions of fear -- and secondly educating self as to how the current world functions and has been created at all levels so that one can face the points of this reality that require to be directed at a practical level to what is best for all, and direct self to learn how it works and what practical action is required to be taken

I commit myself to show that light and positivity have nothing to do with changing the world, as changing the world requires deliberate action aligned with what is best for all life, not pretty words and pictures and feelings

I commit myself to show that spirituality is a deliberately created mental alternate reality of illusion that human beings hide in to not face the suffering and abuse that exists in this world and take responsibility to develop actual physical skills in supporting life together as a group

I commit myself to show that the only force that directs the events that play out daily in this world is the force of deliberate decision in every moment as to whether who I am will take responsibility to do what is best for all and ensure a world that is best for all, or NOT - and that any story / philosophy / religion / idea / opinion that tries to make it more complicated than this, is a deliberate denial of responsibility based in fear of giving up self interest

I commit myself to show that to change this world we will have to give up our characters of 'feeling good' in realizing that any character of 'feeling good' is a polarity of an accepted and allowed character of FEAR that we created when faced with seeing that we have not developed the skill of being able to give practical direction to all points of existence to what is best for all life

I commit myself to show that there are enough people with money, skills, and resources in this world to stand together and design and implement a new world system that is best for all - and that all we have to do is make the deliberate decision in every moment to work together in dedicating our time and resources and skills to making it happen - all we have to do is in every moment make the deliberate decision to STOP self interest

I commit myself to walk the Desteni I Process to assist and support myself to develop the practical skills of self honesty and self forgiveness so that I can deconstruct and delete the characters of self interest / illusion that I created myself as through many breaths, many moments of deciding to accept fear and feelings as who I am

I commit myself to support Equal Money research so that we can develop a new system to end poverty and starvation in THIS LIFE because it is unacceptable to wait any longer while millions upon millions suffer daily for no reason other than our deliberate decision to ignore them

"Anything less than understanding exactly how everything is created, is a lie. A very personal lie. Deliberately fabricated to not take ACTUAL ACTION, because everyone is always busy looking for a 'jackpot'."- Bernard Poolman



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