Day 77: The Parent that says 'Do what you Love'
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when a parent who has reached a fairly comfortable level of success in the system tells their child to 'do what they love', and calls this an act of 'love' - this 'act of love' is actually an act of fear -- where the parent actually fears facing / taking responsibility for the reality of the money system they allow, which is a constant fear for survival and a struggle to earn one's basic needs which is obviously abuse and a violation of basic rights, and so will deliberately not educate the child as to the harsh realities of survival within the money system, even though they themselves had to endure the harsh struggle to get to the point of success decades later -- but rather than educate the child as to the harsh reality of the struggle for survival that is ahead, they will ignore this and tell the child to do what they love, and will support the child with money to do what they love, to the point where the child will develop themselves into a delusional bubble in which they perceive and believe that they are in a world that will actually support them to do what they love, and will, when they finally face the fact that they cannot do what they love because they don't have enough money, will develop patterns of resistance to work and education and become lazy and unmotivated and stagnant and dependent on the parent's money because they never understood the importance of learning a practical skill to make money to survive and are now too defined by the desires and pictures of the lifestyle they imagined themselves living to give up their self interest as 'what I love', to actually support themselves in become financially effective -- where, even when the child becomes a moocher that refuses to get an effective job, the parent will not kick the child out, or cut them off from money, because then they would have to face the fact that their 'act of love' was a lie they told in full knowledge that the system is a harsh struggle for survival
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that an actual act of support would have been to, from an early age, teach the child the reality of what the child can expect in their life to come - which is a constant struggle to find work and earn money and that if you do not learn how to make money you will suffer, and to within this explain that such a system is in fact not best, and is unacceptable
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that an actual act of support would be to, when the child becomes lazy and unwilling to support themselves financially, take responsibility for the lie that was told the child, and explain how I as the parent lied to you and told you you should do what you love, because I feared explaining the reality of what exists in this world, and that I thus compromised your skill development in constantly telling you to only do what you love, instead of supporting you to become effective in a practical skill to make money, in explaining that if you do not make money, you will suffer
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if I do not take responsibility for my lie I told my child, and stop supporting their delusion of 'this world is supposed to support me to do what I love', then my child will have children and pass on the same delusion and the same lie, creating another generation that ignores the reality of what is allowed as the money system, and it will have been my fault as the parent because I feared taking responsibility to educate my child about the harsh reality that I brought my child into, and feared giving my my self interest of my own life, to dedicate myself to a practical solution to support all life
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that, just as politicians lie to the public with messages of hope that never come true -- I lie to my children with messages of hope, telling them their life will work out when in fact I am just lying to them in full knowledge that nothing ever just 'works out' in this world, because to make something work you have to do whatever it takes to get money
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself as a parent to stop lying to my children, telling them they should do what they love, and start focusing on how to implement a practical solution for this world that supports all beings to live a dignified life
I commit myself to take responsibility as a parent to stop my fear of the harsh reality of the world I allow to exist, so I can stop lying to my children that the world is fine and they they should do what they love, and explain to them that they should not do what they love because half the world is in poverty and cannot even eat properly every day, and that what we should be doing is working to implement a functional system that supports all life on earth
I commit myself to forgive myself for the lies I told my children, so that I can stand and face my children and explain how I lied to them about the world
I commit myself to show how doing what you love is abuse, as what starving children need is people who act as directive principle that will produce a world that is best for all, not people who are directed by self interest as desires and pictures in their mind of a lifestyle they want to live
I commit myself to show how telling a child to do what they love is actually an act of child abuse, brainwashing the child into a bubble of delusion to never be able to take responsibility for this world as they are supposed to - remember 'the children are our future?'
I commit myself to stop wasting my money on my own pursuit of 'the lifestyle I want to live', and give up my self interest and dedicate myself to using my money to establishing a practical solution for this world that supports all life, so that I can stand as an example for my child of what it is to live in accordance with reality instead of delusion and lies