Day 60: Deconstructing my Energy Vortex Experience part 1
I read about these 'vortexes' at the stage when I was, as I described in my previous posts, looking for ways to 'raise my vibration' and 'experience energy' as part of my process of 'ascension' to actually 'vibrate' out of the 'physical plain' into a 'higher, less dense' reality / dimension. Basically, since I had defined 'me' as experiences of energy, my perception / desire was that in experiencing energy I would be experiencing 'more' of me, with the 'final destination' as 'a higher dimension' where I'm no longer in a physical body being the 'ultimate experience of myself'.
So, when I read about these 'vortexes' I was immediately fascinated and wanted to go there and experience these 'vortexes' - because I wanted to 'experience the energy' and imagined that it would be so cool because I would go there and stand in the vortex and be filled with an awesome energy experience.
The opportunity arose for me to travel to Sedona, and I was excited to finally get there and explore these 'vortexes' and have all kinds of cool energy / spiritual experiences.
When I got there I got a hold of a map showing where all the vortexes are, and was excited to see that one of them was just a short walk away from the hotel. As I was walking there I was excited, thinking about what I might experience. When I got to the vortex area, I was a bit disappointed that I did not immediately 'experience' the vortex. In fact, all I saw was rocks, trees, plants, the ground. So I figured I'll find a place to sit and meditate and try to experience the vortex. I mean, I didn't know what this 'experience' was supposed to be, all I wanted was to experience the 'spiritual energy' of the vortex 'interacting with me'. So, I sat down and meditated for a while, within myself thinking, 'okay, open, I open myself to the energy'. But, nothing happened. I didn't experience anything. I became frustrated because I remembered reading about people experiencing the 'energy', and couldn't understand why I was not experiencing the energy as well.
But, I didn't give up because I knew there were more vortexes to visit.
Well, after visiting a few more of these vortex locations I was left frustrated, confused and wondering how this stuff actually works, because - I didn't experience anything. But eventually I just figured I still have a lot of 'development' ahead of me in terms of my 'spiritual perceptions' and 'higher senses', and that - I must just not be 'there yet'. And I had hope that I would one day experience this energy of the vortexes, because of the stories I kept reading about people feeling energy, feeling peacefulness, having more intense and deep meditation experiences.
In my next post I'll walk the Self Forgiveness and Self Corrective Commitments for this experience.