Day 55: Is Tai Chi Healthy?
In this blog I'm walking Self Forgiveness on the practice of Tai Chi as a way to 'experience energy', and showing how such a practice in fact is not healthy and is in fact supporting / creating separation. Within this I am showing how Tai Chi can be transformed from a practice of separation, to a practice that can be applied in creating a world that is best for all.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to practice Tai Chi from the starting point of wanting to / desiring to 'experience energy'
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason I want to / desire to experience energy is because I judged the physical experience of my body to be 'not enough'
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I judged the physical experience of my body to be 'not enough' because I read knowledge and information talking about how energy comes from god and therefore if I am experiencing energy I am experiencing god
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the energy I experience in my body while doing Tai Chi is not coming from god as the fantasy / picture I imagine in my mind of a magnificent, light and love filled thing - but is being generated by / through my physical body - without my physical body I would not be experiencing my energy experience as I am doing Tai Chi
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the physical reality is the real god as it is the physical reality that gave me life and I am actually constructed of the physical reality - but that I didn't realize this because I was born into a world of humans that have created an alternate reality in their mind in which they believe the energy experiences they create through beliefs / faith / ideas is what is real and is of god, while calling the physical reality an illusion - not seeing that the energy experience is taking place within the physical body and that within my physical body I experience sensations through physical senses that are a physical system and thus to call energy god is separation as the self interest of wanting to have an experience of god instead of living as god as the physical -- which no one wants to do because we have obviously fucked up this physical world into a world of abuse and neglect as the consequence of our self interest and don't want to take responsibility so we create ideas about god as being in a higher reality of energy so we can try to get to god through an endless process of ignoring the physical reality and leaving it to get worse and worse as we use entire lifetimes in the pursuit of experiencing energy / our idea of god
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I am experiencing energy in my body while doing Tai Chi, that I am enlightened, that I am wise, that I am a master of life, that I have realized something profound - instead of being self honest in seeing that no energy experience I've had has given me any insight into how to create a physical world structured in a way that supports all physical life on earth equally to live in dignity
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that when I am experiencing energy in my body while doing Tai Chi, that I am healthy - instead of realizing that health is the effective physical functioning of the physical body to support the being in the body to live within the consideration of what is best for all life on earth - within which the being would have to have a healthy mind that is in thought, word, and deed aligned with what is best for all where there exist no thought, not definition within / of self that cannot be practically lived on earth physically as what is best for all to produce only what is best for all
Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I created a character called the 'experiencing energy' character - and gave this character all kinds of special values and definitions like 'when I am experiencing energy I am wise', and 'when I am experiencing energy I have realized something', and 'when I am experiencing energy I am enlightened', and 'when I am experiencing energy I am an advanced being', and 'when I am experiencing energy I am healthy', and 'when I am experiencing energy I am changing the world' -- and that this character is not creating a world that is best for all because the only thing it can do is to try and experience energy which is experienced only by me the individual - wherein my experience of energy cannot be practically lived to produce a world that is best for all because I am only actually using this world as a playground for me to experience energy - and why? Simply because I decided 'I like experiencing energy!' and value this experience I like more than Life otherwise I would be creating a world that is best for all instead of using my entire life in dedication to experiencing energy
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that Tai Chi as what is best for all would be the practicing of physical movement with and as my physical body as I am breathing, being Here, not thinking, not creating characters in my mind, not desiring an experience of energy - where, as I move with and as my physical body I am identifying thoughts, memories, pictures, desires, fantasies that come up in my mind / head area, and identifying feelings and emotions that arise in my solar plexus area, and deleting them through self forgiveness in realizing that all such experiences are mind characters / experiences I have programmed into myself through beliefs and definitions that cannot be practically lived physically as what is best for all
Within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that the reason I experience an energy experience of feelings or emotions when I have a belief about something - such as the belief that energy comes from god -- is because I can only experience the belief as a virtual experience - an experience of energy within my physical body -- I cannot experience my beliefs as actual physical lived action -- when I have a belief / definition that cannot be practically lived physically as what is best for all - it becomes a character that experiences itself as energy through feelings and emotions and thoughts in a virtual reality called my imagination -- which I experience within my physical body -- but which no one else can see because it is not Here in Actual Reality as the ONE Physical reality we all share / come from = my mind experience of thoughts, feelings, emotions, energy thus exists in separation of my Physical Oneness with all beings
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that things like Tai Chi currently exist as a lifestyle within a consumer system where the lifestyle exists as a way for people to make money to survive through marketing products and services to help people practice Tai Chi -- so that they can create energy experiences to make themselves feel good as they continue to accept the money system as is and continue to accept that they must earn money to survive and that it is apparently normal and okay to have to earn money to survive - even when seeing that most of the world cannot earn enough money to have even decent food, water, clothing, and shelter and that millions starve to death every year
I commit myself to show that simply being here physically and not experiencing some energy experience IS ENOUGH - ENOUGH to walk the physical lived actions required to produce a world that is best for all - and that if I believe that I must experience energy and desire to experience energy then I am in separation of myself as Life, in self interest - wanting to experience something to entertain myself instead of taking responsibility to work together with other human beings to create a world that is best for all - within which I realize and see that no energy experience is required in order to do this - because the systems that facilitate the delivery of support to human beings / animals / and nature are physical in nature and require only physical considerations
I commit myself to show how just because something is ancient does not mean it is wise - as we have established here in this blog that it is unwise to preoccupy oneself with experiences of energy as entertainment while allowing the world to become a worse and worse mess of abuse and neglect -- because then if I have to come back to this world - I may be born into starvation and it will have been my fault because I valued experiences of energy instead of valuing life and creating a world that is best for all life
I commit myself to show how energy is not god / of god as the idea of some higher reality filled with love and light that I go to when I die -- because I programmed my body to generate the experience through accepted and allowed beliefs and definitions that could not be lived practically physically as what is best for all in actual physical reality wherein I then created a virtual, fake reality in my own mind to experience my beliefs as a character of energy that then possessed my body and made me incapable of physically living in a way that is best for all because all my physical actions became aligned with creating free time for myself in which to practice experiencing energy as a character in my mind
I commit myself to show that experiencing energy does not equate to health - as if I am not here living as my physical body here in physical reality in a way that is best for all working together with other human beings to create a world that is best for all, and am just entertaining myself with energy experiences while accepting and allowing an abusive money system / world system to continue existing - then I am definitely and obviously unhealthy - no matter how good I feel and no matter how much energy I experience
I commit myself to establishing a new world system / money system in which life is valued instead of energy experiences, and within which physical systems are established to facilitate equal access to that which the human requires in order to have a functionally effective body, and in which education is realigned to what is best for all through aligning all definitions with what can be practically lived on earth physically in taking care of all life and supporting each other to grow and expand as Life where no virtual reality exists in anyone's mind due to having definitions that cannot be lived as what is best for all physically in physical reality
I commit myself to utilize Tai Chi as a practice within which I can learn to be here in the physical with my physical body, breathing, and to within this identify thoughts, feelings, emotions, memories, desires, wants related to experiencing energy and delete them with self forgiveness so that I can stop creating an alternate virtual reality in my mind and focus on physical solutions to make this world a place that is best for all