Day 45: The Characters I Allow as Self Compromise Part 1





I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear conflict, if I were to tell someone directly as it comes up in the moment / as I see it, that they are abusing another through allowing themselves to bully another to try and make the other feel bad and to make themselves feel superior / wise / more effective than / better than the other as a point of ego

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed ego to exist in others because I feared conflict if I was to expose their ego

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed beings in my immediately world to participate in ego and to abuse others through their ego, when I could stand up in the moment and expose it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow ego to exist in me through allowing ego to exist in another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest backchat where I judge others in my mind for allowing ego, because I didn't stand up in the moment and express me as what I will and will not accept or allow in me, others, and the world as me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to 'tiptoe' around those who I see allow ego and bullying, because I fear conflict if I were to speak directly what I see -- within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself because of fear

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow beings in my world to whine and complain and argue for their limitations as a point of self manipulation and attempted manipulation of others and their world to not have to take responsibility, because I feared conflict if I were to expose their manipulation and self compromise

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest backchat where I judge those in my world who whine and complain as self manipulation, because I didn't stand up in the moment and assert myself as who I am as what I will and will not accept or allow in me, others, and the world as me, and expose another's self self compromise through allowing whining / complaining / arguing for their limitations

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest backchat where I whine and complain about other beings in my world because I didn't stand up in the moment and assert myself, express myself, speak directly as who I am as what I will and will not accept or allow in me, others, and the world as me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow beings in my world to exist as characters based on memories of who they've been / what they've experienced, and to fear conflict if I were to stop accepting and allowing such characters to exist in my world and in every moment asserted myself as Life as what is Best for All in exposing all such characters directly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to respect the feelings of characters based on memories in the minds of human beings in my world, instead of realizing that such characters are not real, not life, and exist as the compromise of what is best for all and thus do not deserve any respect 

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to respect myself as Life in every moment in standing up and exposing the characters based on memories that beings in my world accept and allow themselves to exist as

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the beings in my world as the characters they accept and allow themselves to exist as based on memories - the characters being that which have feelings and emotions and reactions and thoughts, and within this to be afraid of causing unpleasant experiences within the being if I were to no longer support their character -- instead of realizing that who the being really is is life - not a character with feelings and emotions and thoughts based on memories - and that in allowing beings in my world to exist as characters based on memories with feelings, thoughts, and emotions, I am allowing the beings in my world to exist as a limited delusion instead of being here as who they really are as life as equal and one with me as life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear conflict if someone tells me a joke or story expecting me to laugh, and I were to simply tell them their joke / story is bullshit based on accepting themselves as a character that laughs based on memories and is thus not here as life expressing themselves but is in the mind accessing memories as a character to entertain themselves as a character

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that the reason I allowed others to exist as characters instead of life, is because I allowed myself to exist as a character of fear, backchat, judgment and was too afraid to stand up, stop and express me as life as what I will and will not accept or allow in me, others, and the world as me, and within this manifested myself into the fear that if I were to expose others, that they will turn around and point their finger at me and point out my own characters -- within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear what others might say to me or how they might see me / experience me if I were to just stand up and express what I see as I see it and not just go along with their character, and I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to immediately deal with / stop my own characters as they arise in the moment as thoughts, reactions, feelings, emotions, memories

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live without memory - without the fear of what others might say to me, what they might point out in me, if I were to just express me as life as what is best for all

When and as I expose another's character they are participating in / accepting and allowing instead of being here as life as what is best for all, I will stand and breathe within whatever scenario arises in the moment

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to compromise who I am as life as what is best for all, through allowing fear of conflict

I commit myself to expose the characters that beings in my world participate in, when and as the moment is here where I see the point clearly and within this I commit myself to clear myself of any and all judgment toward the being in relation to the point, before speaking - and make sure that I do not create a character out of exposing the characters of others

I commit myself to expose all characters that exist as a system of feelings and emotions and thoughts based on memories, until no character remains in existence and all that is here is each as life

I commit myself to stop creating myself as a character of experiences toward others and my world based on memories, and to create myself as a real being as life through actual living self expression



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