Day 34: Real Sexual Purity


I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I say 'I need / want / desire to feel', I am showing myself that I have abdicated my self movement as Life to a system of energy that I allowed to enslave me through positive and negative experiences that I defined as Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I am having sex and all of a sudden I don't want to have sex any more or become frustrated because I am 'not having the experience I wanted', I am showing myself that I am not actually having sex as one physical body with another expressing themselves physically in sex, but I am a mind existing as addictions to experiences I designed through desires and fantasies, trying to control another physical human body to align itself with my self programmed experience addictions and am thus in complete separation from my own body and from the body of my partner

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I experience 'love / purity' while I am having sex, it is the same as experiencing 'horniness, dirtiness, filthiness' when having sex -- because both exist as an energetic feeling experience -- but I designed a 'positive experience' as 'love and purity' because I judged the energy of 'horniness / dirtiness' and thus both actually exist in me because I need 'horniness and dirtiness' in order to experience 'purity and love' -- wherein, whether I am having sex to fulfill a desire to experience 'horniness / dirtiness', or 'love / purity' - I am still an addict of energy trying to get my fix of the experience I desire and am not just here in self expression as a physical body equal with another physical body

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I've defined sex as a game of trying to achieve a 'higher level of experience' wherein I've judged a particular feeling experience I call 'love / purity' to be 'good', while judging the feeling experience of 'horniness / dirtiness' as 'bad'

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that whether I have sex in a room filled with porn and rock music or a room filled with crystals, new age art, incense and classical music -- both are the same in that both are an experience designed through value judgments placed in symbols that I've decided I like, based on how I've defined myself, wherein the particular character of the energy / feeling may be different - but both exist as the SAME system of energy, I've just programmed myself to experience a particular character of energy based on my specific value / belief system

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that thus in experiencing 'love and purity' and surrounding myself with spiritual symbols, sounds and pictures - I am not 'transcending' some kind of 'lower vibration of sex', I have merely aligned the mind with a specific value system / belief system based on knowledge, that I used to program my physical body to produce a feeling - and that this is exactly the same thing as programming my physical body to produce an experience based on valuing porn / horniness / dirtiness and the associated imagery and symbols

I forgive myself that I have thus not accepted and allowed myself to realize that spirituality is not placing me in a 'higher', 'more advanced' position than someone who is addicted to porn and, for example rape role playing -- because I am equally addicted to new age / spiritual imagery as my porn, and the role playing where I play the role of a 'higher, enlightened being', that, instead of having a 'horny, dirty' experience, I have an 'enlightened, pure' experience -- both of which are energy as feelings produced through the same Mind system I used to program my physical body with knowledge / value systems to produce feelings

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that having sex and experiencing 'purity and love', is not making this world a better place, because all I will pass on to my children is the pattern of using value judgments connected to specific imagery / symbols to produce a feeling -- I am not actually taking any physical action to design a world that is best for all physically, practically

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that purifying sex starts with purifying myself of ALL knowledge / belief systems / value systems based on the self interest of placing positive value judgments in symbols / imagery from the starting point of wanting / desiring to experience a feeling -- otherwise I am just accepting and allowing the same mind system of generating feelings as energy addiction that those who harm others in the name of feelings use in the name of their own desires / values

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define purity as a feeling of energy associated with certain pictures, sounds, smells, movements - instead of realizing that purity is to purify myself of all self interested addictions to experiences so that I can be free to place myself in the experience of all life on Earth and move myself physically as Principled Living to bring about a world that is Best for All Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use sex for the self interest of making myself feel something instead of realizing that sex is the way to bring new life into this world and within this I have the responsibility of making sure that before I bring a child into this world I have purified myself of all self interest and have established myself as what is best for all and can thus support my child without brainwashing them with the addiction to feelings as self interest that will blind them to the plight of Life and perpetuate the pattern of accepting the current abusive world system in the name of using money and time to generate feelings of happiness instead of using money and time to stop the current system and create a new system that is best for all Life

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that sex is a physical expression with visible physical bodies moving themselves in physical expression exploring the physical experience without any invisible mind reality bubble of separation through the ego of judging energy as feeling experiences to be more than the physical

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I don't yet have any experience with physical self expression because from birth I was brainwashed by the system to place value in energy experiences and become addicted to them through the system's portrayal of expression as feelings and emotions, and that to learn what physical self expression is, I must remove the energetic addict from myself and then learn to live here as Breath in and as my Physical Body and Move Myself in Physical Expression instead of being moved by the desire to experience energy

I commit myself to show that purity is not a lifestyle defined by spiritual stylings based on a system that values only knowledge that is used to make one feel good, but that purity is to align one's values with what is best for all in honor of the only real value that exists which is Life and to live by Principle that is best for all, not by experience that is best for the individual as entertainment that glorifies energetic addiction

I commit myself to purify myself of all mental reality bubbles of energetic addiction that glorify energy as the distraction of 'making myself feel good', through a process of Self Honest Self Forgiveness to delete and remove the accepted and allowed desire for energetic experiences so I can stand here one and equal with and as my physical body and move and express myself as my physical body in awareness and consideration of what is best for all Life Here in the Physical

I commit myself to show how the media portrays expression and life as feelings and emotions and glorifies the pursuit of feelings which creates a race of happiness machines that are easily sold feeling experiences through consumerism

I commit myself to become the example of how the human can change from an energy addicted consumer of the Earth blinded by the distraction of feelings, to a responsible physical Earthling that lives by Principle that is Best for All, that can no longer be manipulated and SOLD through the addiction and desire for feeling experiences -- which removes the power of consumerism to profit from the self interested feeling addictions of humans and removes the Power of Sex as Feelings to Sell products

Watch the Trap, the Century of the Self, and Psywar to understand the human happiness machine

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