Day 29: A Mission of Light or a Mission of Life?
"Lightworkers have reached a particular stage of enlightenment before they incarnate on earth and start their mission. They consciously choose to become entrenched in the “karmic wheel of life” and to experience all forms of confusion and illusion that go with it.
They do this in order to fully understand “earth experience.” This will enable them to fulfill their mission. Only by going through all stages of ignorance and illusion themselves will they eventually own the tools to help others achieve a state of true happiness and enlightenment."
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that to own the tools for happiness in this world, one needs money - as when one does not have money, one cannot own / have access to food, clean water, medical care, education, electricity for the internet and other appliances and amenities, access to a comfortable lifestyle, vacations, free time - and within this I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that it is because I have money that I am able to be a lightworker and spend my time talking about enlightenment and happiness and feeling happy myself
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that currently the 'Earth experience' one has will be determined by one's access to money
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that my mission as a lightworker, as 'helping people own the tools to achieve happiness and enlightenment', only reaches the ears of those with money - as only those with money have access to the internet and free time with which to relax comfortably in their home and align their lifestyle with positive thinking / spiritual / new age practices to make themselves feel happy
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that at the end of my life if I believe I have fulfilled my mission and yet half the world remains in poverty with a billion starving - then that raises the question of whether my mission was actually in support of Life, or just in support of Consumerism - as, when one is happy then one will accept the world as it is and use money to support one's happiness - because of the illusion that when I am feeling happy, then everything is perfect and fine in the world - which means the human with money who is happy will not take any action to design and implement a new world system of Equality that would in fact enable everyone to be happy, but will remain in support of the current abusive Capitalist system to continue
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that to fully understand the Earth Experience I must not focus on my own ability to make myself feel happy, because that is not the Earth experience, that is MY experience of feeling that exists only in ME as energy - not Here as what is going on in the Physical and being experienced by every Human, Animal, and Plant on this Physical planet called Earth -- and in spite of my feeling of happiness, every moment I am here breathing and walking my life billions of beings are suffering due to the Human's accepted nature of itself as Self Interest where we are using the Earth as fuel for our OWN experience of happiness, which again, is only possible when one has money with which to OWN the tools to have a life
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I like the idea of being a lightworker, because it makes me feel like I am making a difference - in spite of the daily physical evidence as war, poverty, starvation, abuse that goes on in the name of Making Profit, showing me that my feeling that I am making a difference, is not stopping those with power / control of the Earth's resources from abusing Life for their own profit and survival - and further, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that if the poor asked me what I am doing to end their condition, I could only talk about methods one can use to make yourself feel good, which requires a lifestyle that the poor do not have access to, as they have no money -- and thus the solution which they require, which is an economic solution as a new world system = I do not have
I commit myself to have the courage to test the integrity of my mission as a lightworker, by giving up my pursuit of energy as feelings of happiness, and dedicating myself to investigating the economic / physical factors that shape the condition of those who suffer without money in this world, and committing myself to doing the research required to establish what needs to practically change in order for everyone to be provided for and the earth to be supported - in terms of looking at how the current system works, identifying that which is not best for all and investigating the consequences that are created through a system functioning from a starting point that is not best for all, and then investigating how each point within the system could be changed to a starting point that is best for all, and how things would change
I commit myself to align my mission on Earth with what is best for all Life here in the Earth Experience, by providing a real, physical solution for those who suffer in conditions with no access to money and support, and to stop focusing on just what makes me feel good and gives me a sense of purpose because I like the idea - such as being a star seed / lightworker / indigo, etc
I commit myself to stop being a lightworker, and start being a LIFEworker - one that is not just here for the light-work of making myself feel lighter / happier, but has the courage / strength / self will / self love / self honesty to stand as All Life and place myself in the shoes of All that are here in the Earth Experience, and get my hands dirty doing the Physical Work required to bring about a New World / New Age - a New Age of LIFE in a world that is Best for All Life