Day 16: A Program of Unawareness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think that having the idea that my thoughts and beliefs are all that I am is an acceptable, cool way to participate in this world instead of realizing that in this I allow those with power and control in this world who abuse life in the name of profit and survival to believe that 'because I think I am here to just survive, that I can use what is here however I want because my survival is the only thing that is of value'
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as my mind of thoughts and beliefs as a wondrous, natural gift of nature that is the product of the evolution of life and that I am perfect just the way I am, instead of realizing that my mind as thoughts and beliefs is a system that was mostly blank at birth, that I have designed as personalities through my own acceptances and allowances, breath by breath - as I grew up and received instruction from those who raised me and taught me, as to how to create myself into a bubble of self interest and isolation from life in which I became lost in realms and layers of delusion woven as pictures and feelings and emotions through beliefs and definitions that I allowed without any understanding or consideration of how to live in a way that is best for all life - therefore, nature did not create me, I created me through a system that existed in me that I was unaware of, resulting in me creating myself as a program of unawareness
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that thinking and creating beliefs is self expression and life, instead of realizing that thinking and creating beliefs is a program that I have allowed to stand within me in place of me as life, where me as life never got the chance to establish myself in self awareness, self honesty, self direction, understanding, here in this world to become a participant in this reality that takes responsibility to care for the earth and all life, because I immediately was trapped into a system of family defined through self interest and survival conditioned by a money system of self interest and survival, which is the program required to exist in humans for the human to be an effective consumer that accepts its enslavement to money and accepts all forms of abuse in the name of profit, so that the few can maintain control and power over the earth to be able to survive and preserve their own families
I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself and humanity to believe that our thoughts and beliefs are perfect products of nature, and I dedicate myself to aligning my mind in all ways with what is best for all through a process of step by step, point by point, taking apart my mind program of unawareness and self interest, and re-creating myself through re-definition and practical lived actions that include what is best for all life, wherein I am then directing my own evolution to become a responsible being that will take the action necessary to create a world that is best for all - so that then I can stand as an example of value and worth that is of benefit to Life, instead of standing as an example of accepting a world of abuse and delusion through not taking responsibility for our minds.