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Day 24: I'm Too Skinny

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'I'm too skinny'
SELF FORGIVENESS  Judgments: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body to be 'too skinny', and to within this also constantly believe that I must be eating wrong. 
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body for not gaining weight.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my body as not supporting me effectively, instead of realizing that in judging myself / my body I am the one not supporting myself

Backchat: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to look more muscular, and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I looked more muscular, then I would be able to express myself more, instead of realizing that whether I look muscular or not does not determine my self expression - I determine my self expression
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to look imposing t…

Day 23: Picture Perfect Delusion

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as the picture I look like when I see myself in the mirror - instead of realizing that that is not who I am, that is part of this reality as the picture that I perceive through and as my mind consciousness system - whereas I myself am Here as presence, as breath, as constancy - but the picture is in the process of changing as my body is changing because it is made up of many cells and organs and physical things which I only perceive as the picture - and therefore who I am is not the picture in the mirror that I see with my eyes because the picture will eventually disappear in death when my body returns to the dust of the Earth and thus it is extremely limited to believe that who I am is the picture I look like, and to attach value to the way I look as a picture

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from what is here as the physical, in believing that who I am and what the w…

Day 22 - Relationship Failures: The Alien Entity Inside Me

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to sabotage my relationship because I allowed my reactions of irritation, blame, annoyance, judgment toward my partner to compound and accumulate in my mind and suppressed them, so that whenever my partner would move to touch me or want to be touched, I would react in disgust, coldness, and isolation - where I felt like I just wanted to get away from this person because each touch would trigger a rise in reaction within me that felt too much to bear
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that this disgust with touching / being touched by my partner had nothing to do with my partner, because at first I did not experience such reactions / resistance to touch -- but that was before I started allowing backchat as reactions of irruption, annoyance, judgment, blame to accumulate and compound within me - and thus the reason I didn't want to touch or be touched by my partner was because I did …

Day 21: Stopping Friendships and Becoming a Friend to Life

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a definition of friendship to exist in this world, that is not based on what it means to be a friend to all life, but instead is defined by two or more people who support each other's similar beliefs, personalities, interests, preferences, tastes, judgments
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed an individual to exist that does not include all life as itself, but instead only exists as definitions of self that include interests and activities and lifestyles that one can participate in within the context of accepting the current world system to exist
Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed an individual to exist that needs to and wants to validate its limited self definitions through forming relationships with other individuals who have similar self definitions
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that when I decide that who I am is Life, and integrate all Life as Self…

Day 20 - Spiritual Integrity Vs. Life Integrity

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This blog is regarding the message of Bashar, which suggests that the best way to live is to 'Follow One's Highest Excitement with Integrity'.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize and see that in accepting 'following my excitement' as my starting point, that I allow everyone else to also 'follow their excitement' which includes anyone who is excited by violence, rape, war, greed, abuse, manipulation, bullying, self interest
I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see and realize that merely saying 'everyone should follow their excitement with integrity and not harm anyone else', is not valid, as within this I have not actually defined what integrity is within considering all consequences that can be created as an outflow from one's starting point both as an individual and as the group as humanity
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that following my excitement and…

Day 19: Blame and the Secret Evil Dictator

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I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame my partner for not doing the things / saying the things that support me to keep hiding what I actually allow in myself / what exists in me, wherein me blaming my partner for 'making me frustrated / angry / upset' is actually me angry / upset / frustrated that I have to face my own reactions / backchat / the truth of me that I hide in my secret mind, where I then use blame to try and manipulate my partner into changing / behaving in ways that will support me to keep hiding the truth of myself as my reactions and backchat in my secret mind
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed a secret mind to exist in me where I hide / bury / suppress my judgments, desires, ideas, beliefs, definitions, where they reside as the basis of my patterns of reactions, feelings, emotions, desires, fears, anxieties, backchats, where then, because I hide from the truth of myself, but because it still exists in me, as me - I th…

Day 18 - Spiritual Failures: I Have Transcended The Physical

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