Thursday, August 21, 2014

Day 264: Uncovering the 'I AM' Statements Hidden in Reactions - 1

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, when and as I see someone left something unfinished, immediately react in judgment towards them of 'they deserve to be blamed for this', within the statement of 'they deliberately did not do this because they didn't want to, and now I have to'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that it is 'unfair' for me to pick up after someone else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to project the assumption that the ONLY reason they didn't do the thing, was because 'they didn't want to', within this using this assumption / belief as a justification to believe that THEY were the one being spiteful, in order to further justify a reaction within myself of the emotion of feeling abused, and further then using this emotion as a justification to believe that by then reacting in anger / annoyance / irritation -- I am in some way expressing a valid form of 'not accepting abuse' and that I am 'a victim of THEIR spitefulness' and that THEY are a 'problem' in this moment / scenario I am experiencing

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize and see that I go into such reactions of judgment / assumption / blame toward such behaviors of others, in order to manifest the necessary negative / friction experience within myself that leads to the positive experience of seeing myself / experiencing myself as 'responsible', and 'thorough', and 'considerate of others' -- where, in order to have this experience of myself -- I manifest a negative experience of / toward others so that I can generate a positive experience about myself / within myself - for myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from who I am as life as all as one as equal here, through and as the character / self idea / I Am statements of 'I am responsible', 'I am thorough', 'I am considerate', within and as a positive self judgment - through which I was in fact making myself 'more than' the actuality of the application / living of responsibility, thoroughness, consideration -- separating myself from physical reality within my mind as energy -- and wherein, in order for such a 'more than' experience of myself to exist as the positive point -- I had to then also manifest the negative point of seeing and experiencing others / my world in some way as 'less than me' -- which I could only do through judgment and blame and manifesting reactions of emotions / negative energy within myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to place my interest in being / living as a character defined by 'I Am' statements through which I can manifest the experience of being more than what is here / more than another / better than another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe in the lie of consciousness as an experience of self ideas / I Am statements defined in separation from and of myself as Here as all as one as equal as Life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that the only REAL 'I' -- is the 'I' of and as Life Here as all as one as equal -- and that, in defining myself through and as 'I AM' statements made within the starting point of creating an experience of being 'more than' another / better than another - I am making myself less than the REAL 'I' - less than what is Here -- diminishing myself into a character in my mind --- in order to manifest myself as a positive experience -- which then also comes with the manifestation of the Negative polarity / friction point required to generate the positive experience of being more than / better than, within the 'I AM' statements I have defined myself within and as, and that no matter how effective I believe I am within my 'I AM' statements --- as long as such characters / statements exist within me as self definitions -- as long as I am in fact standing / manifesting myself in separation from and of who I am Here as Life as all as one as equal -- I will be missing out / not able to really SEE and work with reality -- as I will be existing within / directed by patterns automated within the function of generating energy within and as the mind / consciousness

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see and realize the importance of specifically uncovering all 'I AM" statements I have defined myself within -- to be able to identify exactly where I have defined myself in separation as characters through which I have manifested myself as patterns that function to generate energy within and as polarity designs within my mind as consciousness in separation of who I am here as life as all as one as equal

Will continue in the next post...

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Day 263: Snapping myself out of the resistance to blogging

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, most of the time when I am faced with having a couple of hours to work on writing / blogging, immediately go into a backchat of 'I'm not going to have enough time to really open the point up' and to react to this point within an experience of resistance and then allow the resistance to direct me to rather find something to busy myself with like a point of stimulation, or busy work that I don't really need to be doing, or running an errand that I don't really need to run in that moment -- and to then suppress that I actually see I could have worked on a blog or writing, using the excuse / justification of 'I need more time overall before I can get back to blogging regularly'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe and tell myself that I need more time before I can blog regularly, even though I in fact see that there are moments where I could write a blog

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to manifest a resistance to blogging and manifest a behavior of postponing blogging, through accepting and allowing myself to consistently waste opportunities to blog and then not want to face the effort required of re-establishing the point of blogging consistently

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have an idea / belief that I will experience it as 'difficult and unpleasant' to start blogging regularly again

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not stop myself when I see I am using ideas and beliefs to manifest reactions and resistances

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to have the idea and belief that, if I have one hour free time to write a blog, that that's not enough time to write a blog and to then just not even try

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that because I haven't blogged regularly in a while, that when I start again I'm going to experience it as difficult and I'll have to 'catch up' -- instead of realizing and seeing that -- there's nothing to 'catch up' on -- it's simply a point of taking a point and writing about it in the moment - that's it -- there's no need to have any kind of idea or projection of what it's going to be like

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I 'don't know what to write about', because I was holding onto an idea of what I wanted my blogs to be about - within this not seeing that -- this was the point to write about -- this self forgiveness is what was Here the whole time to write about - thus showing how easy it is to fuck with myself when I am creating ideas instead of just being here and seeing what opens up through moving myself as self expression

I commit myself to identify and let go of any and all ideas and beliefs about blogging in terms of - how I will experience it, what the topic should be, how long it should be, how detailed it should be

When and as I see I in fact have some time to write a blog or at least even START a blog -- I commit myself to breathe, clear myself of any and all ideas / belief / projections about 'how the blogging will go', and to self honestly look at what is here

I commit myself to stop wasting time

When and as I am tempted to postpone blogging - I commit myself to snap myself out of it and physically move myself as breath to - start writing

Monday, July 21, 2014

Day 262: Beliefs and Respect



"Horror piles on horror: Now Israeli tank shells destroy two floors of a HOSPITAL as death toll tops 550 on 14th day of conflict in Gaza"
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2699846/This-desperate-young-boy-face-tragedy-Palestinian-child-clutches-shirt-hospital-worker-screaming-I-want-father-bring-father.html

Are beliefs a valid basis for culture?

Does a culture defined by belief deserve respect when it kills in the name of its belief?

Do beliefs validate a people's / culture's claim of ownership over a particular area of the Earth's land and resources?

Is a culture's belief / opinion valid and deserving of respect when it causes the people of that culture to justify spending years producing and developing the tools and training and resources to wage wars on other human beings that stand in the way of the fulfillment of their belief?

Does killing those who stand in the way of your beliefs / opinions / culture, prove the validity of your culture / beliefs / opinions? Or does it prove you are a psychopath, possessed by a dysfunctional personality built on self delusions?

Is 'freedom of belief' a valid concept for Humanity to live by?

Is 'freedom of belief' a starting point that is Best for All / Certain to prevent Consequence, when it allows the starting point of Make Believe / Opinions to justify seeing another as unequal, or justify claiming ownership of that which the Earth has provided for free to all?

Is judging and killing those who stand in the way of the fulfillment of your belief 'okay' and 'understandable', and 'justifiable', -- if your culture and belief has had a history of being persecuted / judged / killed by others?

Nazi Germany, the South African Apartheid, Israel / Palestine, the Roman Empire -- is there any real difference? Each starting point involves the justification of segregation / judgment / violence / murder through Belief:

The belief of racial superiority
The belief of right of conquest and ownership of land
The belief that one's people is 'special'

Why do we believe that just because someone has beliefs that they define themselves by, and have built a whole culture on over generations of time, that they have a 'right' to continue living / acting within those beliefs, even when they are destroying others in the attempt to survive as their beliefs?

How are we deserving of any form of respect if we accept and allow war and murder and poverty in the name of belief and opinions?

Supporting the 'freedom and respect of beliefs' does not make you a good person. It means you are allowing all that is done in the name of belief.

Respect is to do what is best for all Life and give to another as you'd have given to yourself.

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