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Monday, May 9, 2016

Day 316: What if you lost your mind's eye?

Interesting... Here is an article about people with a condition that makes them unable to produce mental images.
Aphantasia: A life without mental images

What I've found in my process is that in my past, almost 100% of the reason I would spend so much time in pictures / imaginations in my head, is to escape reality / distract myself from the things in this world / in my life that I don't understand / don't like / struggle with -- you know the day to day reality of money, suffering, struggle, frustrations, conflicts, a screwed up world -- where I'd take information that I liked the sound of -- in my case it was things like spiritual beliefs / stories and turn it into pictures in my head, dreaming up alternate realities to keep myself stimulated / enabling myself to 'explain' things in a way that makes me feel good, and to see myself as some character with a purpose / reason for existing that is based on / dependent on pictures / an alternate reality in my head that makes me feel better about things -- when in fact I'm not actually practically investigating reality / relationships / the mind / the world system to understand the problems and explore practical solutions to create a world / humanity that is worth existing in and with.

 I mean, I can use pictures in my head practically - to assist with conceptualizing certain things -- but now the difference is that I'm not using it as entertainment / an alternate reality. What I've found is that, the more I'm learning to Live in practical reality, living without belief systems, standing within and as the simplicity of - 'I am Life as all as one as equal' - is that I don't have the desire to sit and daydream and picture all kinds of stuff in my head - because I'm busy living and developing my self expression, skills, and purpose as a physical life lived with the purpose and self commitment of assisting and supporting to bring about solutions to create a world that's best for everyone.

This kind of condition of not being able to produce mental images raises some interesting questions in relation to belief systems / personalities that depend on pictures in the head in order to maintain one's purpose / stability / experience of one's self -- who would you be, what would you do - if all of a sudden, you could not produce any images / pictures in your head?

Saturday, April 30, 2016

Day 315: Maturity as a Living Word of Self Support

What kind of definition of the word Maturity are we living in our day to day lives?

Is it Mature to allow ourselves to be and remain reactive toward each other?

Is this world a manifestation and example of Humanity as a Mature group of beings?

What associations, meanings, ideas, and experiences are behind your definition of Maturity?

What would Maturity be as a supportive Living Word?

Check out Desteni I Process and Schoolf of Ultimate Living for support with learning how to transform words to living words of self-support.

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Day 314: Imagine All The People Giving Each Other What We Need

When will Imagine become a reality? If we want to live as One - with each one of us valuing each other as ourselves -- we have to deconstruct our individual mind of thoughts, feelings, emotions, wants, needs, desires, fears, values, definitions, beliefs -- to identify and change all the ways we've separated ourselves from OneAnother. War is Over if we want it - but we have to start with deconstructing and stopping the Wars that exist in our minds as ourselves in the form of conflict, judgment, reactions, blame, fear, opinions, and the crusade of self interest, and learn to live within practical, self honest solutions that benefit all. It's a tough road, and hope and nice words are not enough.

Desteni is people walking the road to a world of Equality and Oneness through stopping separation within and as the Mind, and learning to stand as Equals and as One in living application, while living and participating in the world as it exists, facing what is here and using what is here to develop solutions that can be applied IN THIS LIFE.

For example, I work about 60 hours a week, participating in the system, doing the same survival things as everyone else -- and yet I also make time to work with myself, my mind, walking the Desteni I Process, to be able to investigate my day to day experiences, learn from my mistakes, deconstruct patterns and habits that don't support me or anyone else, and establish new ways of living, applying myself, and looking at the dimensions of my life through the eyes of self honesty within how I can create myself in this life in a way that I make an impact that will support what is Best for All.

Monday, January 11, 2016

Day 313: Forgiving the past and allowing myself to move on

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live the statement: 'I can, and will only enjoy myself and express myself if everything is going right in my life'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to limit myself and my expression and my full capacity to participate in working towards practical solutions to humanity, to the idea that I can only be inspired and motivated, and expected to express and share myself if the following conditions exist in my life: Making more money than is needed to 'make ends meet', and having a relationship, and that these conditions mean 'everything is going right', and within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define my current situation / reality / circumstance as 'wrong / bad / not enough'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that working a lot, not yet making the income I want, and not being in a relationship / agreement, is to blame / is the reason I 'don't feel motivated' to express myself and participate to my fullest capacity / potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that 'not making enough money, and having to work a lot, and not having a relationship', is the reason I have recently been experiencing 'not having inspiration / not being motivated / not wanting to express myself', within the belief that, when faced with challenges and things not working out as they could have in my life, that this must become a burden of failure, a burden of the past that I now must carry with me, and that the only way to 'get past' this burden, is to restore / re-create my life to the condition that was 'lost' / changed --- instead of seeing and realizing that, I created the burden because I decided to hold onto the past and judge myself for things having not worked out as I had wanted, and had decided to blame my life for being 'hard' -- thus within this using my creative ability to create myself into and as the experience of being burdened by failure, and having a lack of inspiration and motivation

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as a starting point of self destruction / self loathing / self blame in relation to failure / making mistakes, instead of a starting point of learning from my mistakes / learning from the past, and unconditional self support in USING the past and what I've learned from the past, to specify and perfect my application in the PRESENT in creating myself / creating my life to my full potential

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see that who I am within the experience burden / lack of motivation, isn't who I want to be -- and yet this is who I am accepting and allowing myself to be - and that the reason I've been accepting and allowing myself to be this way is because I am still holding onto the idea / imagined experience of 'things being right' as defined by making more money / being in a relationships - and that I placed a positive value / charge in this idea, making this idea into the 'more than', while judging how and what my life is now as 'less than / not enough'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fall into the momentum / energy of my experience of being in the low / not enough / negative polarity point as opposite of the positive point of my desires / ideas of what I want my life to be -- and to stay within this point within allowing myself to keep projecting the positive point in my mind -- trapping myself in a polarity instead of STOPPING and applying self forgiveness on both the positive and negative points of the polarity and releasing myself from the energy cycle -- within seeing and realizing that creating my life / expressing myself / shaping my life into what I want it to be - does not require the movement of energy / polarity

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that not making as much money as I need, and not being in a relationship / agreement makes it more difficult for self expression to flow, instead of seeing and realizing that I'm the one blocking my own self expression, through deciding that who I am is not enough / not able to express myself, and that it's always a matter of simply moving and standing up from the energy I'm creating myself as - stopping, and changing who I am, making a new decision

I commit myself to unconditionally let go of the past, and apply what I've learned from my mistakes, to creating and expanding myself here and now in each moment of breath - creating myself new each day instead of holding myself hostage to the past through self judgment

When and as I see myself thinking about past mistakes and feeling bad / judging myself about it -- I commit myself to stop, breathe myself HERE, unconditionally let go of / forgive myself, and focus on what is to practically be learned from that past moment, and apply it to creating and expressing myself HERE

I commit myself to show that your life doesn't need to be picture perfect in order to express and share yourself and contribute to solutions that are best for all -- as for example I am doing in pushing myself to write this blog and share my process with others

I commit myself to show that the past is only a burden when I decide it is, and that taking self responsibility with self honesty and self forgiveness, is the way to free ourselves from the past and move on

Monday, November 23, 2015

Day 312: The courage to make a career change

Selfie from atop the 6th floor of my new workplace. A couple of months ago I decided to push myself to apply for a job in car sales, because I was faced with the reality that my income at the time was not going to be enough for me to build my business effectively, in the way that I want to.
I had actually applied for this car sales job a few months before, but on the day of my interview I let the experience of nervousness and fear of something completely new, direct me, and I didn't go to the interview.
But since then, I had worked more specifically with myself in establishing a practical way of dealing with nervousness, where - I had realized that previously I had been attempting to firstly ensure that no nervousness would come up within me, before I would apparently be ready / able to commit to a more time and skills intensive job. But, what I came to see about the nature of nervousness in me, is that I had been judging and fearing the experience of nervousness itself, and sabotaging myself from doing things I actually in fact saw I have the potential to do, just because I really didn't want to experience nervousness.

So I was prepared this time, because I had established a more practical starting point in relation to nervousness. Instead of trying to stamp out nervousness, I realized it made more sense to embrace it, and accept it without judging it, and to within this simply stand within what I see I have the potential to do, let go of expectations, and trust myself to dive in and see what happens. Basically, to stop fighting nervousness.

As it turned out, the interview went well, though I was nervous during it, and I ended up getting hired. I am enjoying my new job, as through it I am each day developing my natural strengths and skills and putting them to use to make a better income. I work up to 13 hours a day but I do not experience it as stressful, because in my new line of work, the more I put into it - the more I get out of it.

Already only two months in, I am also picking up business knowledge and practices, and meeting people that I see will support my own business eventually.
Bottom line is, without the skills of breathing, writing, self honesty, self forgiveness, and self corrective application I've learned through Desteni I Process -- I would still be stuck in a limited job, frustrated with my situation, completely directed by my thoughts, reactions, emotions, and memories.

Are you stuck in a limited job, but afraid to apply or interview for something better? Do you feel like you are no where near your full potential, but don't really know what to do about it? Do you experience a resistance or fear of giving up the stability of the predictable and easy routine, and more 'free time' you have with your current job? Are you ready to make a change?

My suggestion would be to get involved with Desteni I Process, and start learning the tools you need to understand how you've gotten to where you are right now in your life, and how to assist and support yourself to start structuring your mind and your life to support you to reach your full potential.

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Monday, November 16, 2015

Day 311: Cover of Dreams by the Cranberries

My cover of Dreams by the Cranberries. I've always really liked this song and it's fun to sing.

The lyrics of this song, like those of so many others, are an expression of the Energetic relationships of desire / love / feeling - fear of loss / loneliness / emotion that are so prevalent in the minds of Human Beings, where we weave 'dreams' of fantasies and perfection inside our heads, painting beautiful pictures and believing the purpose of life on earth as a Human is to experience as much feelings and emotions as we can because apparently that's what it means to 'be alive'. I don't agree with that because I've seen through walking my own relationship to feelings and emotions, how such mental relationships of energy dependency trap us in perpetual self interest of seeing only what we want to experience in our own lives, and become dependent on each other to fulfill our accepted and allowed fantasies and dreams and hopes, rather than seeing each other as equals and having relationships be partnerships through which we assist and support each other to become more effective in taking responsibility for all life on earth and stopping our obsessions and possessions of desires and fantasies in the dreamland of the mind.

Friday, September 25, 2015

Day 310: How I learned to step outside my comfort zone and change

In this discussion I share my experience with my process of changing myself in relation to fearing challenges and stepping outside of my comfort zone in life. I give perspective on my childhood and how I became conditioned to only be able to deal with what's familiar and easy and the same, and how I've changed myself through applying the self tools shared by Desteni, and been able to establish a practical foundation to support myself to reach my full potential.

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